Hey, there. I am on 10-12mg xanax for 20 years. It is the only medication which helped me with anxiety, panic and depression. Sometimes I take less going till 2 mg a day, but when I a,m doing this I am taking Avanza (Mirtazepine) which helps me sleep, not addictive new antidepressant.. Buttom line, I don't intend to cut xanax totaly, as I see no point in suffering again . Doing liver tests every year, am not drinking alcohol at all. If you create a probleme( like the obsession you are an addict for xanax, this is a stigma and so on) you are working against yourself. I am 44 ,had an work accident 2 years ago and broke my back, thus I am in screws literaly. As with any poison, our body developed resistance to xanax, as well fizical and psychological addicion. I am pretty sure I am not going to die due to xanax/...guaranteed. If the drug is working for you, helping to have a normal life(almost...) just try to go slowly on a maintenance dose 2-4 mg a day., and than take more only if you feel ''the black doog'' getting ready to atack.
Good luck, sweetie, try not to obsses about it coz it will grow out of proportion, accept it as it is: your little buddy who helps you..Good, those panic attacks, wet cold sweats, the imanence that somethinh horrible is going to kill you in the next 10 seconds...brrrrrrrrrrr. No, thanks, plrease call me a xanax addict.
How fast did you get down to 10 mgs? You have to taper very slowly with Xanax. I take it your working with a Dr while going through the taper. Are you going to be put on another anti anxiety med?