help..

[birdybex]

for the last couple of weeks i have felt awfull, very depressed, i feel like ending it all, i never plan anything or seriously think about it i just want to feel better, i have constant anxiety and panic attacks and its getting to much,iam scared of life in genral and everything is just getting to much, iam on 40mg of fluoxitine and it just doesnt seem to be helping.
i dont know if iam just ading to it by constantly thinking about it, as i seem to latch on to a thought and it seems to multiply in my head and stay there for days.its awfull, i had my daughter 2 months ago after losin my first daugther last year to cotdeath and even she doesnt seem 2 be pulling me out of this feeling, its awfull and the confusiing thing is that some days are really good and i feel fine, i have a really bad cold at the moment and i dont know if that is mking me weak and feeling run down, but the bad days are awfull. i need some reasurence that things will get better as i feel like they wont.

[birdybex]

i have just watched a programe and have now convinced myself i have bipolar! i probley havent but i feel so strange that iam looking for an answer, i feel scred about waking up in the morning to a new day. its awfull, i had 5 days last week where i didnt feel like that and i was fine apart from a cold and now today iam at square one and its awfull =[

[JuicyJay]

Birdybex I promise you things will get better. I was addicted to opiates for a decent amount of time and after I got clean, depression kicked in. Every second of every day was torture. Everything felt different, I could not even make myself smile. I felt like I would never get over it, like I was stuck that way forever. I also have a seasonal depression disorder (SAD) in which I become very depressed for about two or three weeks at the start of winter every year. I know how awful it feels. It WILL go away. What I did was force myself to go out and do whatever I had to do to get my mind off of it. You're right though, you shouldn't think about it over and over, it will drive you crazy. Just keep fighting, it will get better, and when it does, it will feel so great.

[birdybex]

i totally understand what u mean hun, bt iam scared of death and do not want to die, i just have this overwelming sence of it all feeling just to much sometimes, and i cry and cry, its awfull, i feel totally alone, =[ iam scared

[LeftCoastChick]

I would see your doctor immediately, you've been through a lot and you could also have Post Partum Depression on top of regular depression. I would recommend you get a referrral. Talking through what you've gone through will definitely be beneficial, especially since you've got suicidal ideations. If you feel at any time you are going to hurt yourself, go to your ER or call 911. I would also say, anytime you aren't well, your mood is going to drop especially with having pre-existing depression. I would also suggest switching meds, if they aren't working, why be on them right? Sometimes it takes more then a couple of tries to get the meds right.