iam not sure wat iam suffering from??

[cluelessman999]

actually iam not sure if its is depression, but i really tired i feel that i dont suit to live in that world i feel that iam not able to do anything in that world my skills r too low, i cant communicate wil people cant make friendships, ive never dared to talk to female, i took too long time to learn driving i cant swim i cant simply live as any normal man
i think i have some kind of disability but i always ask why iam here in that life i blame my father to bring me to that life cos i simply failed to live it my childhood was just a misery i never remeber that i can do wat other children do, i was just tall ugly child and now iam a young man cant feel that iam young uffffffffffffff
i cant tell any1 that i just tried to write it somewhere
iam afraid of death and cant live normally where should i go??????

[cluelessman999]

iam not sure there is a talk therapist here in egypt in addition i dont trust anyone even the doctor, i cant say wat i said facetoface

[ILADVOCATE]

Those feelings of helplessness could be a part of depression but only a psychiatrist would know for sure but it would be worth speaking to one. In addition to a psychiatrist, consulting with a talk therapist would be helpful as well.