Thank you all for your responses :)
That day went alright. I got to see my boyfriend & spend time together. Me & his sister got to talk about it .
I plan to go to therapy as soon as I can. Hopefully I cope well with them. Meanwhile, i'm going to try to stay positive :)
listen to thatquietgirl she is right. you make a lot of friends here if you need to talk and you feel like no oneis there please write here you will make some very special friends.
I'm so sorry you're going through this! Abortion is a difficult decision at any age, but the younger group tends to have a more difficult time statistically. You are making a wise move going into counseling. Be sure not to hold things back and to let your therapist know exactly what you're feeling and why. And talk to your boyfriend. If he cares, he will listen even if to him it wasn't as big a deal.
In the meantime, I would also suggest journaling. Even if you write it out and burn it or tear it apart, get those feelings out! Sometimes the act of just seeing them written helps validate those feelings. Explore why you're feeling this way, what values/morals you have that may be influencing you to feel this way, and what decisions in the future might help avoid more situations like this. You'll be getting a head start in your therapy and it will help you have a direction to go when you first see your therapist.
Also note: you don't HAVE to stay with a therapist just because the therapist was assigned to you. If you don't click with the therapist or are made uncomfortable, then request a different one until you find one who's right for you. Sometimes, it can take a little while. Other times, it happens right away.
Best of luck! And be sure to express your feelings. Don't bottle it in! Let yourself cry if it will help.