I think getting a re-evaluation is a good idea. Sometimes these meds are trial and error, especially since there are no tests to find out which chemical is out of whack. I've been on quite a few of the SSRIs, 9/10 of the traditional ones, none really worked.
Cymbalta is what triggered my hypomania, and that's when I was diagnosed bipolar, if I hadn't taken that med, I may have gone on a few more years without the proper diagnosis. Go with your intuition, I had the exact same symptoms, but never put 2 and 2 together, though I was shocked and upset I got the diagnosis, I'm on better meds. I'm on a med to help with the hypomania which for me is anxiety/paranoia/cranky moods (just to name a few that fall into the hypo category), I also had wicked mood swings, and would drop into a depression very easily. I also had a lot of body pain that made me feel just plain sick feeling most of the time. I never had "normal" days.
You mentioned that the drugs never worked for long. The SSRI /SNRI class of drugs only work on BP folks for a short time, it's called SSRI poop out or anti-depressant poop out, when the med is a stand alone drug. I'm on Lamcital for the depression, it's a mood stabilizer, I'm on Seroquel for my hypomanic phases which include high anxiety. I have trazadone to help me sleep (not a tranquilizer) and because I'm still getting depression, I just had Wellbutrin added on Friday, but this one is safe when used with other meds., I'm still getting low moods ughs. It takes a few tries to get the right meds, but having a psychiatrist on board will help far more then a GP.
Though we can't diagnose here, I can relate to those symptoms. I can't urge you enough to find an Al-Anon group in your area, you find it really beneficial, as well get in a support group for mood disorders, your GP or psychiatrist can point you in the right direction.
i used to be on no anaxiety meds just stuff dfor depression and yet when i started to feel anisious all the time i was sent to a dr who just does meds by my np he put me on the 3 mg 1 tab 3 times a day but then said only when needed i was told it was a high dose but if i rememeber correctly my aches and pains started when i started all this medicine but got on this stuff for depression warning and side effect say on line not to mix these drugs im worried i have caused more health issues i feel out of control of myself not to mention the high stress at home yes my husband was in aa for two months then he slipped and got drunk one night after he stopped going to aa he has not drank again that i know of but the paranoi is back full swing just since one slip it all came back its haunting me im not sure yet what his intentions are with aa im concerened more with me and my amssive mod issues and lack of controling my outbursts and my feelings of dread and giving up and thoughts of just feeling useless im not sure what to say or where to start i will be calling the dr on monday will se from there but the gp was the one who sent me to this guy i felt i was being used as a trial and error person with him so i went back to gp and everytime i have tried to get of depression meds in general i loose all control and end up back on something just to feel somewhat normal but it nevr fails withing a few months it gets worse maybe i should get off everything and see if it is me maybe is not depression maybe bi polar i just dont know but to have every part of me ache and to have episodes like i do its scary and i feel so strange like im not me at all its hard to expalin thanks for your responce and your time
It could be that you are getting withdrawals if you don't take it, you really need to address this with your doctor, 3mgs a day is quite a bit - my pdoc said to never go over 2 and that's as needed. You might need an anti-anxiety med instead, or your cymbalta dose reconsidered. I found Cymbalta very activating, it gave me anxiety. I know a lot of people who've had a positive results from Cymbalta, but you should really sit down and have a look at your meds.
Is your husband unwilling to get help? Is your dr. a psychiatrist or a general practitioner? If he is a GP you should really look into getting a psychiatrist if you can. I would also suggest seeing a therapist. Being in a relationship with an alcoholic is toxic, and it makes you co-dependant with him and his disease. You might also want to look at going to AL-ANON, this program is for family members dealing with an alcoholic family member, it's a great program, I went through it myself because of my brother. I'm glad you posted about your concern about your intake of ativan, that is the first step, I hope your dr. can find something else to help you.
http://www.al-anonfamilygroups.org/meetings/meeting.html