Just so tired...

[Katerz90]

I have been fighting depression now for over 3 years.. And I go through phases... Sometimes good sometimes really bad... Lately I have been stuck in the really bad phase.. I guess I am feeling like my life is going nowhere, I'm only 24 but I just sometimes don't see where to go from here... I am at a stage in my life where people around me say that I am in an abusive relationship... But I can't see it... I am wanting to try and start settling down... But he is not ready... Never ready and it just makes me feel worse and worse. I am not so much as suicidal but I don't want to live this life.. But I don't know how to change it... Any advice would be helpful...

[4Maddie44]

You say you have had depression for a few years now.  Are you on any medication for it?  You are young, and I know you think now there is nothing ahead for you.  I do hope your partner is supportive, and understands that you have an illness.  

So long as the relationship is going well, don't worry about him making a comittment.  If you don't want to live your life as it is now, how do you want to live it? It is difficult for me to tell you how you can change the way things are, because really, that is up to you.  Please try and see the positive aspects of your life, and cherish your partner.  Love does help a lot.  

Yes we all go through good and bad times, especially with depression.  If the medication you are taking is not helping, then perhaps a chat with your doctor will help, and you could try another anti depressant to see if that makes a difference.

Take care

[Bubulous]

If you can't change the people around you.... change the people around you.  If you are not ready for change it just means that you need some more pain or you need things to improve.  We don't make life changing decisions until our lives become unmanageable.  I wish you the best of luck.

[benjamin000]

First of all I think you should find the root if your depression has beеn disturbing you for 3 years. Maybe you must do something that you don't like, for example changing work, flat, country?

[Bubulous]

Welcome to the forum Benjamin.  One of my sons is named Benjamin.  Kate was the original poster on this thread not Maddie which is who you addressed your post to.  No worries, just letting you know.

[Katerz90]

I am on medication for it... My relationship is not going well we have been together for over 7 years and he doesn't want to make any real commitment... Its frustrating but I don't know how to get out of the relationship... And I'm honestly afraid of being alone. I dunno sometimes it just feels like giving up on life would just be easier..