I hate my ovaries. :(

[Tanker Chic]

Well I had another u/s today and for the third month in a row, I am ovulating on the right side.  The side without a fallopian tube.  It is so frustrating. I cancelled the IUI.  All I want is a real chance at a BFP.  

I'm going to try one more cycle without follicle stimulating meds.  If something doesn't happen this next cycle, I'm going to insist on them.  

Talk about the longest TWW ever.  When you know there isn't even a chance.  And I'm not even offically in the TWW until Sunday.  

This *****. :(

[mlb1234]

I know Hannah,  I feel the same about "if it was any other egg..."  it is CRAZY especially since we actually see the follicles with these treatments.  I never imagined that big follie I had would turn out to be my darling Isabelle but I am soooooooo glad and thankful it was HER and that we decided to be aggressive with the RE that April!!!  I just feel SHE was destined to be my baby...I was meant to have HER(in particular) in my life.  It is such a miracle so just try to be patient.   Maybe the right side is ovulating waiting for the perfect left side follie to be your future baby!  When it happens and you meet you future little miracle you will be so glad it happened when it did and not a month before or after!!!  I think your ovaries are just taking their sweet time cooking up a beautiful little princess for you (but if it is another son it will probably take even longer since it will be hard to make another boy as beautiful as Jacob!!)  Best of luck - you will get there and I can't wait when you do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Tanker Chic]

Thanks you guys. I'm feeling a little better today and lisa you make a wonderful point.  If I had conceived on any other month with any other egg, I wouldn't have my lil'jakey'poo right now.  I shiver at the thought.. :)

If not this month or even next, it will be another month.  Just gotta get there..

[40smama]

Hannah - I felt the same way about my stinkin' ovaries when they wouldn't respond to the meds!!  I agree w/mlb & Luci - it WILL happen for you one way or another.  One thing that helps is having friends on this forum who'll get you through this & having little Jacob to hold and love (go read "our" book to him - LOL).

Mlb has a good point - when it's meant to happen, it will and you'll get that beautiful baby & if it takes the meds, then the end result will make it all worth it.

You have such a great 'tude about all of this, hannah - I'm so proud of you!! - jen

[mlb1234]

Hi Hannah - I am so sorry too - that must be so very frustrating.  But saying that, just remember that if you had conceived during any other month you would not have beautiful Jacob but some other baby.  So when it is meant to happen, it will and you will be blessed with another little miracle!!!  I am so happy that I conceived the month I did and not earlier or later or I would not have my little Izzy, the light of my life!!  Even though it was frustrating and hard and I was so emotional but now looking back all the waiting was so worth it!!!  I know you feel the same about Jacob and you will with your future baby too!!  You know I am wishing you lots of SSBD (and I am secretly hoping for a cute little girl for you so you can buy her all the cute clothes!!!  I know she will be one spoiled little princess too!! (like Izzy!)!!!!!!!!

[babyprayers]

I am soo sorry hannah, I know you don't want to hear this but it WILL HAPPEN.. perhaps now is not the time, I never used to think that either, I wanted to get pregnant now. when I look back I realize that all those months of trying to conceive and being so depressed at BFN after BFN that had I gotten pregnant back then things may not have gone they way they did. I was in school full time and working full time, all the stress of everything, I could have miscarried. I know how badly  you want this. maybe right in time for christmas  

[bree08]

I'm sorry. I hope you have better luck next cycle. It really $uck$ when our bodies dont cooperate with us. Good luck :)

[Helen72]

Oh, I am so sorry.  This must be so frustrating.  I hope next month your body cooperates.