Hi everyone, it has been quite a while since I've been on the forum. I didn't know where else to go because it just seems like NO ONE understands. I was diagnosed about 3 years ago. I take Cymbalta, fentanyl, xanax, flexeril, and ambien.
I am so tired of feeling like this. I don't know how much more I can take. I hurt all the time, the anxiety and panic attacks are daily now, heart palpitations, dizziness, headaches, body aches, skin hurts to the touch, brain fog and I'm exhausted all the time! Just to name a few LOL (if I don't laugh I'll never stop crying).
If I'm with friends or family I just smile and pretend everything is OK. I don't want anyone feeling sorry for me, I don't want to be a burden, I don't want to be the "complainer" or worse, hear that all too familiar saying " you look fine to me"! There is no way for me to explain to them how I feel, they just don't get it. I'm tired of pretending and I'm tired of feeling like my life is over.
I'm sorry, I know each and every one of you hurt every day too, I just need to vent and get this out.
I lost my job of 7 years last month due to an injury. I didn't heal from the surgery so they let me go. My doc says the Fibro hindered my recovery.
I had been on an intermittent FMLA leave prior to losing my job. I was working full time but missing about 8 hrs a week due to Fibro. I think they just found their excuse to legally let me go. Honestly, I knew I wouldn't last much longer working but would have preferred leaving to be my choice. Not sure what to do now, I'm scared. I know I can't hold down a regular job, the FMLA was the only thing that saved me.
I'm just at the end of my rope and don't know what else I can do. Nothing seems to help. My RA is understanding but just wants to keep prescribing meds that don't work. My other Docs look at me like 'I'm some kind of nut. I want my life back!!!
Thank you all for letting me unload here. I had to get it off my chest and at least feel like someone heard me.
Hoping you're having a better day =) Thanks again!
I can't sleep, even with the sleeping pills, if I do finally fall asleep I wake up constanly and am so tired I stay in bed most of the day.