Seek therapy because you don't believe the "best doc in your country" or us 30months ago, so nothing anyone here says now is going to change your mind.
https://
www.medhelp.org/posts/HIV-Prevention/Rimming/show/3023832
Today's post shows your mind is coming up with a bunch of ideas (presumably you're still fixated on the idea you have hiv) that no one here is interested in analyzing, since you don't have hiv. You're not a researcher and have no medical training so your attempts at reversing 40 years of hiv transmission research to replace it with your ideas about disease transmission will fall flat.
No one here can provide the therapy that you need to try to calm you down.