I recently signed for a med delivery for my boyfriend of almost 2 years. We live together and he has two children. I opened the package to see what it was because he never takes medicine and I thought something was wrong. After some research I found out that Atripla is for treating HIV. He has been taking it for 5 months now (it said the original date on the rx). Needless to say I freaked out and about had a panic attack. I have not asked him about it yet, but I am going to. I want to go get tested ASAP but I cant until Monday morning. Until then I will not have sex with him, and I plan to confront him after I am tested, positive or negative.
Basically, my question is, do I assume that he is positive if he has been prescribed Atripla? Or is it a possibility that he may be taking it because he could have been exposed, to keep him from getting it?
Regardless, he has never said anything to me about this and since I assumed we are monogamous we have had unprotected sex regularly for almost 2 years. I love him, but I feel betrayed and I am extremely angry and hurt. I feel like if he is positive that I most likely will be too, and feel like he has shamed me and ruined my life.
I cannot talk to anyone about this. If I tell my friends and/or family I am afraid someone will try to kill him, or report him because if he KNEW, he is acting illegally by exposing me without my knowledge. As mad as I am, and feel like he deserves to be locked up, he is a single dad and his kids have no family. I don't want to feel responsible for his kids losing their dad.
I am so scared, anxious, depressed and don't know what to think, say, do or feel right now.