Concerned risk about drunk blackout

[Rc989]

I had a really long night of drinking and I pretty much blacked out on the walk home . I remember a moment when someone was talking to me . Then I woke up a town over 2 hours later . I was for sure really drunk bc I fell and hurt my back and my lip is busted.  I think I remember falling on my face . Obviously I have concerns . I have always feared hiv and not in put into my head that the person I think was trying to help me could of raped me if he wanted to . Clearly I was vulnerable passed out on the streets . If I were raped anally I would assume I would of felt it yesterday when I woke up at home from a cabit ride I took around 6am . I'm ashamed , upset at myself and I have a wife and we are working on  having a child.  I feel guilty bc something could of happened to me n I don't want to risk infecting her if I was raped . It all sounds crazy but I blacked out .

[Rc989]

I didn't feel something down there . I think my anxiety is making me have worst case scenario thoughts . A lot of bad things could of happened to me but yea I guess if I was raped I would of felt it in the morning. I clearly am regretful and very upset at myself right now .  

[Claire_MHModerator]

Yes, you would have felt it if you were raped.  If you're concerned get tested.