20th of July was the day that starts my worst period of my life; insertive anal sex with gay.
I had no idea about hiv and aids. But I believed I was hiv positive.
How can I tell you the worries that I experienced.
I could not work, study, sleep, talk to my girl friend, my mom for weeks, months.
In my job, all day I sit and think and think and think.
My boss and girl friend started to complain.
I used to drink alcohol.
I started to use 3 depression pills, smoke 2 packets of cigarette in a day.
I escaped from my job and walk alone for hours.
Symptoms had started.
Oh my god!
The guy stopped to answer me on phone. I learnt that he is working as a organizer in a bar. It may be a gay bar or something. His house was disaster, a piece of ****. But sometimes you can not refuse your instincts. Do not blame yourself. We are human, not robots. We make mistakes.
Then, I see medhelp forum. Dear all, thank you for all. You were great. You are my friends. You answered my silly questions. Doctor HHH is number one.
Today, I got 85 days negative result. This was my 6th ot 7th test. I forgot their numbers.
Actually, I have some advices for newcomers:
1) Learn the possibilities of hiv transmission. Vaginal Sex: 5/10.000 and Insertive Anal: 6,5/10.000. Take a breath. Read and learn. Sources: medhelp,thebody,aidsmeds. Read the forums. You are not alone. Ask to forums. Teak will help you :)
2)Take Combo test at 28th day. More than 95% accuracy.
3) Take standard anti-hiv test at 6 weeks: Now you are %99 not hiv positive. (%100 according to doctor HHH-Look to CV of doctor to learn about his career.)
4) If you are not relax yet take 12 weeks test. You will be negative.
5) Use condom friends. I am begging you.
Thank you doctor, teak, extremestress, regularjoey, meworried, chrisneedhelp and others that I forgot their names.
I will be here to help others.
Kind Regards