please give me a right advice, crying because of anxiety

[pehen]

Hi,

Today i went to a hiv lab to meet a nurse and get something from her,,
she came with her gloves on (i saw she was doing some tests on a hiv positive person and his blood),,,she had a plastic bag in her hands and gave the plastic bag to me, i had that bag in my hands while we were talking for some minutes, then i opened the door and left there,,,when i was in the car, i saw a small (1 mm2) wound on the back of my finger, it was not bleeding but seemed a somewhat new wound,,,,i am scared if her gloves or the plastic bag were hiv blood contaminated and this could make a risk for me from that wound,,,or what about that room's doorknob when i grabbed it to open the door,,or even is it possbile that i got that wound in the lab without noticing it??    ,i am really really scared, please tell me the truth: is there any hiv risk?  in the last months i had an irrational hiv paranoia because of the same incident, and that made me not even having sex with my wife,,,,,and now, again i am scared even more than before, i am really tired,  what should i do? avoiding my wife again and get a test in 3 months? please help me buddies,

[LIZZIE LOU]

you say that she was doing some tests on a hiv positive person and his blood.  REALLY?  i'm curious as to how you know this.

REGARDLESS...you had no risk.  hiv is not transmitted through environmental surfaces or inanimate objects.  when hiv is exposed to air, it becomes inactive and unable to infect.

you had no risk

[pehen]

yes she was, i am sure, because in that clinic they also give medication to hiv infected people,,i mean that lab/clinic is dedicated to hiv people,,

Please, lizzie can i be sure there is no risk? please note that my wife breastfeeds our baby and i really don't want to put them at risk,,,

[LIZZIE LOU]

if there was any doubt, i would not have told you that you had NO RISK.

[pehen]

what about the doorknob? or what if there was some sharp object in doorknob which cut my finger without me knowing it??  my last hiv phobia was because of the same thing ( a stupid fear that began when i was in the same clinic, again just touching an object with small cut),, i do NOT want to be more fearful again so i came here to ask you ( i know you have good experience in this matter) , so do you suggest me i absolutely forget about this day and go back to my life?

[LIZZIE LOU]

"so do you suggest me i absolutely forget about this day and go back to my life?"

OF COURSE ! ! !

[pehen]

i've read that if somebody always think about something, it can really come true!  this boosts my fears,,,,in the last months i always was thinking about hiv,,,going to hiv clinic and lab,,,and such stupid things,  my first fear began when i dated an stranger woman and just inserted my penis between her legs and no sex,,,then touching objects in hiv clinic while there was wound in my hand,,,and the last one is the topic of this thread,,,,,now i am TIRED , i WANT TO forget these things, i want to forget hiv,,,am i permitted to forget hiv?

[LIZZIE LOU]

you are permitted to seek professional mental help for your hiv phobia / anxiety.

we can give you the FACTS regarding hiv transmission.   we CANT do anything about your inability to accept them.

[pehen]

so i try to forget about hiv,,,thanks lizzie, i am somewhat relaxed now, even my wife told me i shouldn't worry about this incident,,,,thanks again

[pehen]

please also answer this question:

i am worried for that what if there was a sharp object (blade, razor..) on the doorknob which an infected person put there and it cut my finger itself? because when i left there i saw my cut looked a bit fresh , can i rest my mind regarding this concern too?

[nursegirl6572]

A razor blade placed on the doorknob that you somehow wouldn't notice?  Come on...that is totally irrational and phobic thinking.  You need to seek professional help.

[pehen]

Please also answer this question:
there was a table at the corner of the room near the patient beds and the nurses used it, there was a sanitary napkin roll in the table,
i used a piece of that napkin to dry my hand sweat and i know it touched my finger's wound, no risk? what if that napkin was used by a patient, or blood contaminated?
also , what if the door handle itself made my finger's wound when i grabbed it to open the door? it was a bit firm,
my mind is making strange stories about this day, what should i do? thanks,

[RainLover71]

Hiv is not transmitted via Fomities,therefore there was no risk here.You need to forget all about this situation and think of something more creative to do with your time.If you are finding it hard to except the facts then seek some therapy and you will see how irrational your thinking is.

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[pehen]

ok, i accept the facts, but please also tell me:
can it be possible that my finger's wound was due to a needle-stick that i cannot remember or did not notice it when i was in the hiv lab? or is it probable that the healthcare worker when she was giving me the items (rapid test cassettes) , or another person, attacked me by a syringe and caused my finger's wound? i say this because the wound looked fresh (but not bleeding out) when i left the lab and i am afraid if it was made in the lab or just some minutes before i went to the lab,   the wound was between the right index finger's joint and the nail,
i really cannot remember a needle-stick, i only was waiting near the door of the room until the nurse came and gave me the items, and then i opened the door and left there,,,and the nurse who was seated near me (not the nurse who gave me the items)  also told me i had no risk because i called her later ( if there was a needle-stick at least she could realize that, even if i didn't realize it,,because i am an absent-minded and distracted person),
what should i do buddies?

[nursegirl6572]

Seriously, you need to seek mental health help.  Your thinking is highly irrational and paranoid.