Hello, I am a 24 y/o homosexual male. For the last 3 years, i have been 'sexually' active. I have engaged in the following: receiving oral sex. mutual masterbation. deep kissing. receiving anilingus. I have 'topped' a few guys before for short periods of time, and have always worn a condom. I have let a couple guys TRY to penetrate me, but it hurt too much so i told them to stop. 3 guys that i engaged in mutual masterbation with were HIV+ (no penetraion/attempted penetration there) The last person i have fooled around with who i know is HIV+ was 6 months ago. Last week, i had a DNA PCR test done--NEGATIVE. I have been stressing about HIV so much for the last year that i somehow in the depths of my psyche, have convinced myself that I am positive. despite the NEGATIVE result. I am just curious to hear from you people out there who are living with HIV...HOW DID YOU GET IT? i would appreciate your help in educating me and easing my mind. Thank you