Dear Dr.
Hello sir,
I am from INDIA and 29 year old. I am unmarried. I had never any relationship with anyone in my life except once. I had relationship with a girl in 18 Feb,2011 with protection I mean with condom. I am not sure whether condom was broken or not.I am not sexually active even.
But before this I notice something beside my lips but I didn’t care about this and continue my shaving . In the month of march,2011 this bumbs has increasing my beard area some other near to my eyelid and eyebrow ( Like pinhead ). But I didn’t care and keep continue my shaving . In the month of April I visited to dermatologist . I diagnosed with molluscu. He recommend me HIV test. I was shocked and under depression. Anyhow on 8th April with courage I went for HIV tridot test . 2nd days I was going to collect my report .I was feeling like getting my death sentence. I was praying to God whole night. I got my test report 2nd day that was negative.
I went to Dr. with he told me that most of the time molluscum on face in adult by the reason of HIV. By the way he prescribe me some antiviral and cream Immiquod. After a week I again go for HIV test without Dr. recommendation because I was so horrified again I got negative in HIV Weston test. Then I go to another dermatologist he told me that like this type (pinhead ) of molluscum is not related to HIV. By the way he also prescribed me some antiviral and Retain A cream . I continue this till 25th may,2011. But after all not have any improvement . Then I again go to my first Doctor he stop cream and continue some medicine and start applying TCA 25% to burn my molluscum . I continue my medicine till one month. But I didn’t get any improvement. Then I decide to go best Dermatologist in my town. He prescribed some antiviral and cream with a soap which was created by him and he told me that during the bath applying this soap on affected area with rubbing and do the same procedure before applying the cream. With a week my molluscum spread a lot . ( In my personal opinion due to rubbing ) Even he told me that you can keep continue your shaving. But I have already stop my shaving from May.
I got some more red spot on my shoulder these are not look like molluscum . I these to Dr. he told me that these are infection due to rainy season. But I did not believe at all. I have already stop his treatment after two week. I think his style of treatment and medicine increase more infection. I have already done 6 HIV test after my life 1st relation that was from 18th Feb,2011.
My HIV test done after that date
7 week after exposure (Tridot HIV TEST),8 week after exposure (Westorn),12 week after exposure (Tridot),17 week after exposure (combo test including p24 antigen),21 week after exposure (combo test including p24 antigen) and 24 week after exposure ( PCR DNA Combo HIV and VDRL) . These all are negative. The last test on 9th Aug After 5 months 22 days of exposure
I am totally tired with all these test . Sometime I thought about suicide . Every day feel like a year to waiting about more HIV test report.
I am crazy and freaking out whenever search on internet that if a person (specially in Adult)have molluscum on face any eyelid these are by the reason of HIV.I have been hopeless due to this. These are not big but spreading day by day ( Approx. 250-300).
Dr. it’s true that facial molluscum with an adult due to HIV only.If not so why everywhere in internet showing only these result. Have you seen any adult in your life molluscum on face ,eyelid ,eyebrow without HIV.
From my sexual relation on Feb18. I had 6 HIV test and 1 VDRL test .All are non reactive ( Last on 9th July after 5 Months 22 days.) What is the chances for HIV positive if i will go after 6 month. Till when i have to for HIV test. because I have tired all of these. Sometime i feel like crazy. can't bear this tension or pressure anymore. I can't talk to anyone even my friend about this.Everyday i thought that why i am going for HIV test when my all 6 tests were negative at 5 months . Am i waiting or hoping for something wrong or i have convince myself for HIV positive. My heart is not listening to the HIV test reports. I don't know why. I am feeling guilty. Due to only one mistake of my life stand me here in this position. This is my life worse time ever.
For god sake Dr. reply my question . I am begging on my knee. Kindly suggest me what to do….
Thanks and Regards. .
Maddy……Jo.