High risk HIV exposure???!!!??????

[Worriedsick414]

Ok I'm a 20 yr old female who is worried sick that I have HIV. About 4-5 years ago I had sex for the first time with this guy I was dating. Unfortunately I was drunk but I still asked him to use a condom but I don't know if he did or not because the room was dark. He was in the millitary and was just leaving to go over seas. I know the millitary doesn't let HIV infected people travel over seas. But I keep thinking that maybe he got infected after he got tested, and by him breaking my virginity with no condom on is a high risk right??? I'm worried out my mind. Please HELP..I've never had any ars symptoms. But I did develop a small rash on my arm about 3 months ago and it didn't go away for a month and a half, but I kept worrying about it so that could be a factor. It did go away when I treated it though..any thoughts?? Please help!!!!!

[Worriedsick414]

Your right...thanks!

[LIZZIE LOU]

the ONLY way to know one's status is by testing.

odds are...the guy didnt have hiv...but still test so that you can put this to rest.

[Worriedsick414]

I guess I'm terrifyed of knowing. I don't know what I would do if I'm positive. I guess I'm holding on to the chance of being negative. Being positive would ruin my life.

[LIZZIE LOU]

if you are worried...why havent you tested?