I do not have the emotional and psychological makeup to create a relationship and be with one woman and receive plenty of oral sex. Sorry but I do not claim to be a good person. In any case, I intend to find escorts or whatever woman would be willing to give oral sex to me, for as long as I can get it up and I know I will be able to afford it financially for the rest of my life. But I will never have sex with them under any conditions. I already have HSV-1 (oral herpes) since childhood so I am only worried about HIV because I can deal with other STDs. Am I insane or this will never put me at risk for HIV?