Hi,
I am a 28 year old male living in the UK who is in a bad way at the moment, I was on Holiday a few weeks back and was reading something about HIV. The next day or two I could'nt get the topic out of my mind. When I got back home a tidal wave of anxiety hit me and I started to drink alot and take pain killers to help the day go by.
I had a one night stand with a girl about 8 years ago unprotected, I did'nt think anything about it at the time and foulishley did'nt even consider STI's, a year or two later I met my wife and two years ago we had a stunning daughter. My wife was tested negative during pregnacy so hopefully she is fine and we have been using Condoms ever since.
I have now developed oral Thrush as my tougne is thick white with sore looking red patches when I scrub it it does not go away my gums also feel very tender. When I looked on the internet about oral thrush I almost broke down. I seriuosly dont think I could handle the thought of infecting my wife and possibly my daughter.
I know you are not a counceling service but I feel very very alone at the minute and would appreciate any thoughts, I cant sleep, eat or think straight. I will book to see my doctor.