Thanks Avonella, I will catch you there...
You are truly fine. Never had a risk WHATSOEVER and it is your fear and OCD playing into your mind's state right now. You do NOT have HIV- period. You should post in the OCD and anxiety forums as I can offer more help to you there.
You don't need any response from previous posters.
It is your OCD and mental state talking and not logic.
You are not at risk, your are merely suffering from paranoia. Recognise it and get more help for it.
Lizzie, Avonella, regulars....dont you have anything to tell me? Please...I need someone I trust to say something.
Okay guys 1 year passed...Anyone can read the previous posts to learn my history plus especially Teak will recall me from both forums.
I dont know why i am writing again but this time its with hasitation, dissapointment and anger...with frustration...
I was officially diagnosed as OCD and heavy depression; may be because of the the IVF procedure me and my wife are struggling for almost 3 years; I am seeing a psychiatrist for 2-3 years, tons of heavy medication. Tons of talking...Exercising everyday etc.etc.
After my last postlast year, 1 week ago, finally my doc told me that am in good shape considering my mental problems.
Hearing thet I am OK, last wednesday me and my wife went to hospital for a restart of baby making.
As in the protocole took the HBV,HCV and HIV tests. All came nonreactive.
It was a great relief for sure.
I was feelling really well.
That day around 5 pm I was fixing something at home and scratced exactly the same spot as in my last years post. My thumb. Its OK. I have nothing.
At 10 pm I ordered something from the market. The home delivery guy came and I took the bag from him....
And my brain my..f**** brain reset itself as I have never been to any treatment. Back to squere 1.
If the guy had blood on his hand. If I touched his hand with my thumb...if if if..
I know the rational working brains will say, "its no risk in this incident" Yes I know.
Just the same day after the negative result. I was hoping to have a good sleep finally..uffffffffff :(((
Tell me something guys, tell me that this word is too compilcated for me...Tell me i am such a dumb..
Sorry to take your time...But may be someone all around this world has something to tell me ...
If noone responds or even clears the post its again fine with me.
Be well.
Thanks nursegirl....I know..I knoww..I knoww...:(((
"I immediately wiped it with those hygenic wipes, parked the car 2 mins later and took pictures of my thumb in case i will need later. "
No offense, but you sound extremely parnoid. WHY would you need pictures of a tiny accidental scratch? I don't fault you for wiping the area, b/c you could be prone to BACTERIAL infections...BUT THE PIC? With all due respect, that is seriously overreacting.
You were NOT at risk in any way shape or form for HIV. There are many threads, articles, (check out my journal)...and info in the health pages. HIV is NOT transmitted in this manner, no ifs ands or buts about it.
If you continue to have these types of irrational thoughts when it comes to HIV...you may want to seek some professional help.
Thakk you Teak. I hope i will not be an exceptional case after 3 decades of the pandemic.
Be safe.
You were never at risk. HIV is transmitted by:
Unprotected vaginal and anal sex
Sharing works with other IV drug abusers
Mother to infant.