I get massages, no extra. Last time, I weak, lonely, let her shower me, started oral me briefly, then she stopped put lubricated condom on me. She rubbed our genitals together few minutes and want sex. I sat up to stop and she jumped on lap, wrapped legs around me and she thrust on me a few times before I lift her off. I never sex before but think penetration when she did this before I lift her off. I saw condom on before and I took it off after but can't remember coverage or if broken - more I remember, more imagine worse. Told her no sex, she said she sex with many men everyday. Heard 50% sex workers have HIV in Southeast Asian country. Convinced I have HIV, ruined life and can't work, sleep, eat. 7 days now, plan take combo test at 2, 3, 4 weeks. I scared and ashamed.