I have a kid on the way. I have a fiance. I got drunk and got head and had sex with a man... that is bad enough and I feel like I could die for it. I cannot sleep at all, I lie awake cringing at the thought of being infected with HIV.
I met this man through a website, that story in itself is long. He performed oral sex on me without a condom, and I performed insertive anal sex on him for about 5-10 minutes with a condom. After that, he masturbated me until ejacultion with a small amount of sucking. Sorry to be so vulgar, but I am very worried and afraid.
I do not want to infect my fiance. It was a dumb thing and I could have ruined my life. I don't want that to happen. I am wondering what my risk of being infected could have been. The condom did not break or anything, and I read that oral sex has a low risk rate but... I am still very afraid. I am even afraid to get a test, because of the results, but I know I'll have to...
The reason I was mostly worried, was after sex, I looked at his leg and I saw lesions. I immediately began to inspect his body. They looked as though they were healed, but they looked like deep wounds on his leg. I have read that comes with being infected with HIV.... so I took a look around his room, and I saw a prescription bottle for Testosterone. I felt my heart drop. I know that Steroids are given to treat HIV, and I also saw some swap type looking things, like they were for giving some kind of test. I asked him what they were for and he said working out. I am just very worried, and I pray to God to help me get past this... I want to be healthy.
Please if anyone can, help me out... I need some kind of comfort, something.
Signed,
Now an Insomniac