God bless you all here. My exposure happened in late 2013 I met a girl at a party she came to my apartment later on. We didn't have any form of penetrating sex, she did give me a blowjob and I kissed her. Later on I started having burning sensation and discharge followed I became scared my mind didn't go to hiv to the fact that I didn't have penetrating sex with her. I became scared when my touge became white, swollen gland, loss weight, I was told not to worry about hiv by my doctor so he tested me for other stds all negative no Uti or yeast infection. That calm me down. But fast forward 3 years later I'm still have the swollen gland, and early this year I had chicken pox it went after 4days but right now just yesterday I saw tiny chicken pox around my hand I almost died cause I was told the only way chicken pox can come back is due to weak immune I'm so scared like I haven't eaten. The chicken pox still appeared this evening tiny ones.
My question is can saliva infect me if the girl was on her early infection stage i heard hiv is really present in the saliva during the first week of infection is this true ? Can I get infected if this is true? I was at the hospital but I couldn't test I was too scared. Please should I gather the courage to test? Please answer me I'm losing my mind.