I’m suffering a lot right now and it’s difficult to get the day through.
Four years ago I was in a bar and an acquaintance of a friend gave me a kiss on the forehead. He was a bearded guy getting drunk with beer, and a big drop of something — I’m assuming it was saliva, but it prob was beer — oozed/ran down from my forehead to my eye lid (I’m assuming it entered the eye).
I got very nervous and even asked him if he was tested, and he said that yes he has recently been tested. But of course, maybe he had a few one-night stands before, he was a bit like that.
It’s been four years and that still terrifies me, because me and my wife just had a new kid.
Me and my wife have had sex only a few times since our first kid (4 years ago) and she was tested and negative during both pregnancies, the first 4 (4 years ago) and the recent one (a couple of months ago).
I still sometimes like today wake up frightened. What if that episode infected me and our new child is infected too?
I have done all my tests before we started our relationship about 8 years ago, and have been straight-arrow monogamous ever since. I panic with the idea of having tested again, I have a severe ocd problem but would like to be sure objectively of the risks involved so I can take up the psychotherapy side of the ocd.
Thanks a lot for the help. It really means a lot.