So about three weeks ago to date, I had sex with a prostitute for the first time, $100 for 30mins. She told me to bring condoms so I did. Long story short, we had sex for maybe 10-15 minutes, because I was so nervous and scared I never got a full erection. I did ejaculate inside the condom and continued for 3 more strokes (still flaccid) and then I was done. From what I could tell the condom did not slip off or break. I took it off tied it and threw it in the trash. I immediately felt guilty and ashamed and in complete disbelief as to what I just had done. I rushed home and washed my self with anti-bacterial hand soap. Feeling foolish I just threw all of my clothes off and took a shower..
it has now been 3 weeks since the encounter and I’m extremely terrified, at week 1.5 I got tested for all STDs including Gonnoreah and Chlamydia because I was feeling some testicular discomfort but everything came back negative. They did an ultrasound and found two small cyst but told me not to worry about it. Then I felt some tingling on the head of my penis. Not the tip but where the penile glands are. I only felt it when my pants were on, but when I take them off I didn’t feel anything( I’m circumsized) the doctor took A look and said she didn’t see anything unusual or out of the norm. She instructed me to wait 3 days for any lesions, bumps, ulcers etc. and if I didn’t see anything after those 3 days to celebrate because it’s not herpes. 4 days past and nothing. By the 2nd day the feeling was gone. With no rash or ulcers or new bumps on my penis. Over the past 3 weeks I have had some extreme depression, anxiety, stress etc. everyday all I wanted to do was climb back in my bed and not wake up. Every little thing feels like a symptom. One night I couldn’t sleep out of fear of contracted something, I kept waking up sweating( not drenched in sweat, just mild) and panicking. Our room is naturally blazing hot because we have no A/c but we did have 3 fans on that night, and I still slept under a comforter. I also had another panick attack on the bus one day, my heart started racing and immediately drunk some water and felt 10times better. I had diarrhea for 2 days, I couldn’t get an erection for 4 days, and I couldn’t even think about sex. I lived in fear every waking moment. Constantly online looking at symptoms and checking my body and genital region every second of the day. I just want to know what’s the likelihood of me catching HIV from this prostitute? If she even has it? I tried texting her and reaching out to her and I’m getting no response obviously. I’m deathly afraid and this is all I can think about. If there was a whole in the codom could I still contract anything from her? Could the condom break and I not even know it? I’m freaking out! Everyone I talk to about the situation tells me not to worry because all the other results came back negative and I wore a condom, but what about those symptoms? What if the condom failed without me knowing? I need help!!