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i tested positive. i guess it's all over now. i know there drug cocktails i can take, but they cost alot and i dont have the money. im poor, black, gay, and now i have HIV. thanks for your support everyone but i guess i have no one to blame but me and me trusting other people. this is it
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I'm so sorry.
I imagine you are in a very lonely place at the moment; but please don't give up hope. yes the drugs are expensive, but there are many ways around that. If you are poor, there are Drug Assistance Programmes (ADAP) that can help you, and many, many organisations that are there people in your situation.
While you will undoubtedly find emotional support here, I suggest you check out aidsmeds.com and thebody.com for information on where to go from there. There are many  places you can go from here; most of them are up.

I wish you the best of luck. Life doesn't end with diagnosis:)
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I'm very sorry to hear about your positive test.

Like dobber says, we'll be here to give you as much emotional support as we can, but don't give up hope and seek out the organisations that dobber suggested. On top of the drugs, there are also people who develop disease very slowly (called long term non-progressors) and you do not know whether you may be one of those.

My best wishes and thoughts go with you.
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Hmm.  When did your orgy take place?  Are you sure this was a recent infection?  When was your last negative test? Please don't give up on yourself.  You will get through this & like Dobber said, there is hope available.
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I AM SORRY TO HEAR YOUR RESULTS.
I WISH U THE BEST OF LUCK AND PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP IN UR SEARCH FOR HELP.
CAN U PLEASE TELL US WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME U HAD UNPROTECTED SEX AND HOW LONG AFTER THAT DID U WENT TO GET TESTED HOPEFULLY U GOT A FALSE POSITIVE I WILL RETEST IF I WERE U JUST TO MAKE SURE.

GOOD LUCK
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Can I say here that I am sorry for your test result and I feel for you if what you tell us is try.

A part of me is a little skeptical only becuase we seem to have two positive results here in the past few days with similar stories - gay guy gets done up the bum with no protection. is there anyone else out there beginning to think that ray and gayorgy is the same person.

If not, I aplogise for my skeptiscm but I juts had to ask.
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im really sorry for your result. dont give up though
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my name is bobby. i dont know who ray is, but maybe i should talk to him if he's positive too.  thank you everyone for your support.  i cant stop crying right now but i think in my head i can be a better artist now. thats all i can think so i dont end it.  we started our group back in september and we had all just tested negative, thats when my last test was was in august.  we ended our group a month ago after we found out and my friend tested positive last week and me today. i think i just need some time by myself now away from everyone
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my heartfelt prayers are with you and your friends.  dont beat your self up for your mistake.  focus now on the future with keeping healthy and following the advice of your doctor. my heart goes out to you my friend.

ray, man i hope everthing turns out, but if it doesnt you have friends here.

im so very sorry....
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Ray (as I don't want to address you as GayOrgy),

While I do not have HIV, I know that testing positive can be a traumatic event. I would imagine that you are feeling scared, confused and depressed right now. The first few days after a positive test are indeed very difficult for many as they come to grips with their positive result. I have read many stories from many people discussing their feelings upon receiving a positive test result.

Right now it is very important for you to do a couple of things. First, deal with your feelings. I know how hard it must be for your right now, but understand that the intense negative feelings you are experiencing right now will subside in time. There are many, many avenues for you to get the emotional support that you need right now. Some are Web based (like, for instance, Aidsmeds.com) forums, and some are offered by the various departments of health in the area in which you currently live.

Second, start dealing with HIV. You may not understand this now, but HIV is not a death sentence anymore - not by a long shot. 25 years ago, that wasn't the case. Now it is. You do not have to let HIV control you or your life - the wonderful drugs on the market today, and those coming down the pipeline on a yearly basis will help *you* control HIV. It is said that for most people who test positive these days a long and happy life is certainly still in front of them. But, you need to act. Get to a doctor who specializes in HIV care and start getting the baseline workups you need to determine things like your viral load, drug resistance, etc. What you do now in terms of finding medical care, and establishing relationships with medical providers is critical.

So, the two primary tasks in front of you now are finding the support that need: emotional and medical. The sooner you undertake both tasks, the better things will be down the road. And remember this: now matter what you may think right now, everything really is going to be alright. I know, hard to believe, but it is true.
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I am very sorry to hear your news.
I understand its very hard at first, but you can still live healthily with it. There's alot of people living with it without much problems, as you aware hiv is treatable these days, and is regarded as chronic disease rather than what they think 20 years ago. We don't know the life expectancy to this disease yet, as there are people living for 25 years positive already without even prgressing to aids stage, and then there are also people who have full blown aids still live for 9 long years up unitl now. So don't give up hope, start commit yourself with a healthy lifestyle and you will be fine!
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