very worried

[paranoidindaport]

hi there, first of all thank you for your forums, they are comforting me somewhat to know that im not the only one going through this anxiety!
I am a 22 year old female from uk. This time last year i had sex with a a prtner upon where the condom came off half way through without us noticing, he ejeculated inside me. I also performed oral sex on him where he ejeculated into my mouth too. I took no other precautions other than the morning after pill, i have recently found out that the boy takes steroids! and now am so worried that im constantly shaking, disturbed sleep, crying all the time and lost my appetite. I had a test done yesteday (full std screening) and have to wait 2 weeks for the results! i cant cope with this wait i am litterally a nervous wreck! Are these symptoms im experiencing a form of manic depressive? and what are the odds if my partner was infected?
Many thanks and look forward to your reply.

[paranoidindaport]

hey guys just got my results back!!!!
all NEGATIVE :D :D so happy! feel as tho im the luckiest girl alive and boy have i learnt a very very important lesson!!!
Life's too short and i'll always wear a condom!
thanks for your support

[paranoidindaport]

thank u for all your help guys :D im just seeking comfort i guess...this wait is so horrible! think i'l end up an alcoholic by the time my results are in! i'l let u know my results.
and again thank u for all your support and advice.
this forum rocks!

[ExtremeStress]

Please look at all previous posts before typing. If you read her original thread you will see that she has also already tested and she is waiting on results!!!! I'm just giving advice, because if you post and it has already been stated or it doesn't relate to the previous, it doesn't come as being sincere.

[tonypham]

ops...

u didnot know him well but u still had unprotected sex with him...

so only get yourself tested, is the best way to know your status...

goodluck

[paranoidindaport]

i dont have any contact details for him unfortunately....i know his whereabouts only from the last time i saw him. Surely the doc would have informed him of the 3 month window?

[tonypham]

send him an email ^_^...

u know

almost ppl find it easy to tell everything truly on email instead of a phone call :)

[paranoidindaport]

i cant ask him as he's now living in thailand! but am i right in presuming that the medics that did his test would have informed him of this window?
p.s thank u all for your responses its so nice to speak to people who know wthat they're talking about :D

[ExtremeStress]

yep! wait for your results!

[tonypham]

u can go to ask him...before he came back, had he had sex with anyone last 3 months...

if he says no..you're safe

[paranoidindaport]

cool! i also forgot to mention that he lived in south africa for a year...he tested negative when he came back, but after learning about the 3 month window i fear his results could have been misleading. I am also concerned about my mental health! am i being paranoid?

[tonypham]

what makes u think he is HIV + ??  what makes u think that he may share his needle with someone else...?
i dont think he has HIV

[Teak]

Steroids are used for a lot of things not just for enhancing muscle build and hormone replacement.

[paranoidindaport]

no steroids are hormonal injections/tabs that make your muscles larger! (not sure if my partner injected or took them orally)
Anyone got any ideas for how to get through these 2 weeks without turning into a complete nut case?
p.s Teak I have made appt with my doc for next monday (he couldnt c me any sooner ) thanks

[tonypham]

what does ' steroid ' mean ?  is it the med for HIV person?

[Teak]

If you are having depression see your doctor. HIV is not a game of chance. You'll have your results in two weeks.