1 Year Post Coming - God I'm Scared

[nygirl7]

OK how stupid is this........I'm about two or three weeks away from my one year post test and all of a sudden I'm so SCARED I can't breath.  Logically, my mind says don't be stupid but my tests have been so screwed up with the false positive and then finally the UNDs that I can't stand it.

Honestly I'm almost thinking of not even getting it.  hey my doctor seems to have forgotten it...no word from him.....

has everybody taken all of their post treatment tests?  I'm sort of just wanting to let it go and live with the SVR of the 8 month test result...all of a sudden I'm just petrified again like during treatment.

Anybody out there skipped the year test?

[Deb_c430]

Do it! I admire you so much and the support you give us all!
It is normal to be afraid, anxious,  But you are going to be ok, I can feel it!  
You are a women of great courage,  you work the beauty biz in NY, single Mom, what's a little test? I do not even know you, as many others do here, but your determination and the kind words you have brought here after being SVR shows how much integrity and courage you have, you could of walked away and forgot all those here,  but you didn't.  You pop in and instead give even us who do not know you courage. Your no coward, go!
all the best
Deb

[FlGuy]

Thinking about it, I think I can understand your reluctance.  Going way back to those 400 iu pcrs and than that goofy false positive I think I can see why you are feeling the way you do.  But I also remember a lot of us getting on your case (almost to your irritation) about to get the pcr re-done.  It was almost to the point to which your wore out those stiletto heels that your old slime-ball boss liked so much by digging those heels in when we were pestering you.  And all that stuff turned out ok too.  You'll be fine Deb.

[cruelworld]

if you dont do it you will be double nutty. i dont see any problem with putting if off for a while if you are having other pressing difficulties.
what id like to know is, how is the recovery coming along?
you sounded so bad in this regard several months ago that it made me wonder if this 72 stuff is worth it.

[chellski]

hey! so many people look up to you here..with good reason - look at how far you have come.....and it's absolutely normal to be scared - i was, i still am scared it will come back - irrational? maybe, but it's real.   but we will be fine, don't not get it though - you will always wonder..... chelley

[Lady Lauri]

....After 72 weeks of treatment - 1,000 fudgicles and a year testing neg I shouldn't be a basket case but......

Uhhhh, yes you 'should' be! But your doing good!

..... I know that I have so many stressors in my life right now.........

The biggest one being SVR...to make all the other stress's easier to handle. You'll be SVR, I feel it :} Get that stress off of you.

  Feel better , LL

[nygirl7]

Thank you guys..it's so irrational but I just can't stand it.  Can't even breathe when I think about it.  I know that I have so many stressors in my life right now (ie: $$$, work, kids) going on that it shouldn't even be popping up on my radar but I'm just too scared to even call and get the paperwork sent in on it.

After 72 weeks of treatment - 1,000 fudgicles and a year testing neg I shouldn't be a basket case but...I guess it NEVER gets any easier and I just need a little moral support.

Better remember to take my AD tonight (and wash it down with a xxanax too!)  ;)