Apology

[timothy141]

I know this is not a question, but a statement of acceptance and understanding of self. I am truly sorry for lashing out. My critical thinking has be all but destroyed, that is evident to me, and I understand who I have become at the moment is not who I am. My truth is all my life talking with others has always come easy, almost to easy. Causing issues in my closest friendships. I have noticed I no longer draw others to me, which was never something I work at to be sure. But instead I no longer posses the gift of a ready smile or an openness for others. This makes me sad because I have begun to alienate myself from those things I cherish the ability to share the joys of life.
    

[dontworry_behappy]

Everything you are saying happened to me during treatment.  Your smile
will come back to your face. : )  All I can say is it really makes you appreciate
life more when it over.

[orphanedhawk]

I hear you loud and clear. I became a hermit during tx, and wondered even for several weeks after, where my joy had gone.

Be patient, remember that these meds are affecting you, and that the 'real' you will return~ hopefully healthier and happier than ever !

[pooh55811]

The drugs affect us mentally and emotionally as well as cognitively. After you are finished with treatment and the drugs start to wear off and get out of the system, you will gradually return to your old self. It takes time, but you will get your life back, and hopefully more (SVR). Hang in there. Treatment is tough/rough, but it is worth it.