One Sided Love

[itengineer]

I'm on during treatment, and it is already 10 months passed.
And, recently I feel depression, so badly.
Not sure, it's because of a girl I gave my heart and who doesn't love me back or because of the treatment.
Went clubs a lot of times(of course didn't drink), did a lot of stupid things with friends for trying to forget her.
She is so beautiful, all of my tries to forget her is failed.
is it because of treatment, or because I fall in love with her too badly?

Sorry for a dumb question. I'm 29 years old, man.

[Idyllic]

Awww in this day and age I think what we consider a staker might be a little less rigid than it used to be.

I don't see the harm in checking FB or other areas your paths used to cross. Once in a while that is. It isn't easy just to erase all our feelings and stop caring about someone.  I know it can't have been easy distancing yourself from her but for the time being perhaps you are better off.

I would hate to see you hurt or disappointed and these HCV meds can really do a number on our emotions. Sometimes things hit us deeper or harder and we are just not ourselves.

You sound like a decent honourable guy any girl would lucky to have. Maybe when all this is over you can focus your interests elsewhere. Until then: Be good to yourself.♥

[itengineer]

Thanks for all of your answers. Now, I feel a little bit better.
By the way, my treatment will end at Sep 10th, and I hope I'm gonna be more better after the treatment.

I didn't text her for a week :) As Idyllic said, it's just a waste of time if we don't have a mutual feeling. Now, I'm doing all I can to control myself.

But, sometimes, I check her facebook, and if she is online or not on Skype.
I feel I'm kind a stalker, lol. Hope everything is gonna be allright, after a few weeks.

When I'm busy, I don't think about her. So, maybe I should make myself more busy.

Now, all I can do is espying(I didn't mean stalking, sorry for my English) her happy like a gentleman. I hope I can do that :)

By the way, we both are an Asians, but from different countries. So, even if we love each others, our parents won't like it. You guys know about the Asian cultures.

Thanks for sharing your opinions, guys :)
I can be stronger.

[JasmineT]

I have found that post treatment, when difficult thongs happen, I over react emotionally.  Things hit me harder or make me a bit more snappy.  Although i am 3 weeks off the ADs, I know I would still be on them if I was in a situation as you describe and I know they would help.  Treatment effects the way your brain handles neurotransmitters.  ADs can help retrain the brain to receive the signals normally. Whether it's treatment or not, I agree it would probably help a lot to see a doc.

[Idyllic]

Sorry this is happening. Being attracted to someone who does not feel the same way ***** whether you are on treatment or not.  It takes time to accept the feelings are not mutual and a relationship is never going to happen.  I encourage you to see a doctor if you cannot pull yourself out of this. Hang in there xx

[nygirl7]

You should speak to a doctor about getting an antidepressent whether it is treatment or the girl. It could help. More than likely it is the girl you dont hear often about people being depressed after they are off their interferon.

[rivll]

It is not a dumb question, but I am not sure we can answer it.
Are you still on treatment or have you been finished for 10 months?
That wasn't very clear. If you are still on treatment, your depression could be caused or made worse by the drugs.