Need some help.

[makani]

So, I recently broke up with my first girlfriend after a long term relationship, and ended up sleeping with this girl a few weeks after when I was at a party, there was honestly about 10 seconds of oral
(it didn't smell very good, maybe dating a virgin got my standards high), and then a couple seconds of unprotected sex before she said it hurt and we kinda just stopped and went back to the party. I found out a few days later that she is rather promiscuous, and just at the same time one of my good friends from school was diagnosed with HIV, which really shook me up, and since I have only been with 2 girls I've never really worried about things like protection or STD's, but now they are all I can think about, I honestly have been terrified the past week. I have got my Hep B shots as a kid, but I'm really worried about herpes and HPV, HIV is in the back of my mind of course, but some part of me fears disease more than death. Anyway, over the past week, starting a day or so after this occurred and I started stressing, I had slight lightheadedness, and after that I started having to pee often and go to the bathroom often (it was pale for a few days, but is back to darker now) and there is slight irritation in the area my groin, which had me real stressed out, and now (over the past couple days) there are tiny red bumps on my head and upper shaft, they don't really irritate me aside from an occasional tiny throb, and my urine is regular coloured and painless, but I keep checking and there seem to be one more now and then, I have appointments for tests anyway, but I am just so scared, I almost became religious again, there is this girl I recently became friends with who I really like, and I don't know I could tell her I have something, I am already low on self-esteem, I just want some suggestions, could my stress have anything to do with this? Should I stop checking and hope they go away? I'm getting tested regardless, but I didn't know where to turn.

[makani]

Thanks grace, you're an angel, I was actually thinking yeast, as that would explain why I have to pee so much yet have no pain, and the little rash on my lips hasn't worsened or turned into a blister or anything, it just looks like a little cracked skin at this point, I do chew my lips a lot, I  might have asked for a little infection, but would that explain my diahrea? Maybe I've just worried myself sick, and it is winter around here, everyone I know has been sick, it just seems so coincidental, if there is a God he's having a lot of fun with me>.> I guess I can't do anything but wait for my appointment, I might pick up some Monistat and see if it works, and hey, once this is over I can start worrying about the other STD's:(

[gracefromHHP]

Bumps that are there and then gone - aren't due to herpes. Even the rash at the corner of your lips is more likely to be fungal than herpetic from your description of things ( google angular chelitis ).  Sounds like perhaps you picked up a little yeast more than anything. Following up with your student health center this coming week is a good course of action ( darn shame they couldn't get you in sooner ).  

grace

[punk1983]

Your taking this a bit too much. i mean i had a low exposure but you have a Lower exposure. dude some doctors are rude (i mentioned STD and two out of 4 and basically did not even look at me. I even called one when i saw a mark on my head and he declined to see me to do a PCR he told me to go see an URO he also said he was not my primary care physician)

Please man do not check it that often you are making it wost yourself.

I can not say about symptoms as i have only had any and what i taught was "clear symptoms and a bump that defenitely looked like herpes" the practitioner nurse at an STD clinic does not think so (and they see herpes more often than i do!!!! so do not come to conclusions yet)

relax dude.... i meet a couple of people that DO have herpes and is not the end of the world It would suck yes. but just try to relax as most likely you do not have it....(again easier said than done)  :) SLEEP

[makani]

My doctor didn't look at me, he said to check with my school lab if I had symptoms, and I made an appointment at my schools health center for next week (it was the first they could book me), I was planning to go back to the hospital tonight, but got caught up in other things, the only thing I'm worried about now are the little rashy patch in the corner of my lip (it's most likely just HSV-1, right?), and the little red bumps on my penis, there were a couple on my foreskin when I pulled it back, but they are gone now, just a few on the head, I'm really not sure if they belong or not, I have not itched or had any pain all day, and like I said my urination is back to normal intervals, and it never hurt or was dark, no discharge, and my stomach has even stopped gurgling..oh wait, there it goes, but still, it was behaving till I thought about it. And if I used a condom I would be far less worried, but it was very minimal, one full entry and a few licks, I know that can be more than enough, the timing of my illness was just so odd, and I'm hoping it was stress induced to a point, I'm really hoping to get out of this clean, or with a little HSV-1 at worst, it's taking it's toll on me.

[gracefromHHP]

When you saw your doctor - did you have a full std screening done?  You didn't mention if you used a condom or not.

It sounds like you are looking awfully hard to find your symptoms.  

grace

[punk1983]

LOL

Also. it is normal to have little (almost non-visible) reddish dots on your head all of us have them. This only means that you are looking too hard. trust me. I used to check myself at EVERY bathroom i could go and had different lighting. Sometimes i'd see the red dots on  it sometimes i wont. i notice that small red almost skin color dots are normal they will never go away. plus if there were something weird you will see something RED! not just reddish

Its just that before (even though we all masturbate) we do not pay attention to our body.

this sucks i have picture memory or how ever you call it but I can not remember what my part looked like before..... not in such detail as i know now.!!!!!

we'll b alright.... im still getting tested but trying to calm the anxiety which is the BIGGEST problem with people in our situation. again easier said than done.... try excercising I almost run 2-3 miles daily. (good for heart! and mind)

[makani]

And don't worry, after this scare I'm pulling a South Park and wearing a condom even if I'm not having sex>.>

[makani]

Thanks man, it's always good to know someone out there feels your pain, when I look at myself erect the little red things are pretty much invisible, and my urination and ejaculatory functions are still fine, which if the little red "bumps" at my head were herpes you would think would not be the case, and it's entirely possible the cold sore is just from the stress I've been having and the sickness (I know that cold sores are a type of herpes, I'm not overly worried about HSV-1), it's just a kind of chicken and the egg thing, am I sick because I'm worried, or worried because I'm sick, I can't wait to be tested and get this over with, I'll try to stop checking, I've been keeping my hands washed and stuff, I just can't get it out of my mind, I'll work on it though.

[punk1983]

Just try it. i know its easy for me to say it but almost impossible to do specially since i still get freak out at any symptom that i get. but just hang in there man

[punk1983]

DUDE i totally feel you man. I've been scared for about 6 weeks now. Every little bump- part that shines on the head ANYTHING makes me feel I've got something. I think of HERPES and HIV and its just depressing to even think about it. I even had night sweats the first nights i fell i had fever (checked temp not even 97). Do not worry. ITS WORST (THRUST ME) to keep checking your part. Then its gonna become tender and burn a little (on mine i even got a small lesson from pulling my skin too hard) this = MORE STRESS. please do not check yourself that much i know its hard (I have stop checking it)

I did have the exact same feelings light headache, Weakness, I got a sinus infection at the second week which it made things worst. Even back pain. I have freaked out gone to the doctors (3 times now) all of them see nothing wrong. (even when i go to the doctors i even claim they do not know much about STD's which some of them do not) I went to an STD clinic and they saw nothing wrong.

One thing i appreciate and i think you will is that I've learned about STD's and all that can happen. there is a stigma about all of this diseases and little education about them. We are human and we do mistakes we are not GOD.

Just remember wear condoms!!!!

[makani]

So, today I woke up, and the little red dots are still hanging around, there aren't any more, maybe 1 or two less, but either way, I went to school, drank water, and the whole day from start to finish I had no pain at all in my wang, no irritation, itching, or anything. My shin is kinda achy, but other than that I was fine, still need to pee a fair bit, and my feces aren't coming out compact yet, it's more of a ton of nuggets (sorry for the description), I was feeling better...but then I started getting a cold sore in the corner of my mouth, atleast that's what I think it is, it's just a tiny red dot right now and a little redness in that area that feels different, now I'm really scared all over again:(.

[sarahcruz]

Your lightheadedness could be a direct result of the diarrhea.  The more you defecate, the more you dehydrate yourself.  Keep yourself hydrated by drinking water, or gatorade.  Something that doesn't have a lot of sugars or salts in it.

Just remember, people make mistakes and no one's perfect.  Of course you're going to worry because you don't know what's wrong with you.  And that sucks, and causes a lot of mental anguish.  Try to relax.  Get tested, wait for the results...that's all you can do right now.  You know if you worry a lot, it stresses your body out making you more susceptible to illness...like a cold.

[makani]

Thank you for that, I really hope you're right, I will take the utmost precautions if I am negative (or positive, obviously), I'll hope this is all just anxiety, but am prepared for the worst, they really aren't in clusters or anything, just a few here and there, and they aren't oozing anything, I guess I've been having a few flu like symptoms, mainly just the diarhea though, and the lightheadedness, my trip to the doctors they took my temp and it was normal, and he told me not to worry, but this was before the tiny little "bumps", sigh, there's this ad on the bus I take to school for condoms that mocks me every morning, I hope this doesn't scar me, I've been researching std's all week, and each day become less and more worried back and forth, hopefully this can all be resolved soon:(.

[keephope558]

well, i hope everything works out for you. my results came back negative, but I promised myself that I would remember how bad it felt to be in the situation that I was next time I felt like like being w/ someone. just a thought....google "pearly penile papaules pictures" and "male fordyce spots picture." It is totally possible that this is something else. Yeah, everyone imagines that they will have atypical herpes or a new strain, but from what I hear, you shouldn't even worry about this unless you have classic symptoms like blilsters that open, ooze, and crust over accompanied by flu-like symptoms. good luck to you and treat yourself right.

[makani]

I know, I'm just worried as all, I've kinda resigned myself to the consequences of my actions, it's just so easy to wish that I hadn't done what I did, just erase that minute of my life, and it's been driving me nuts. My doctor kinda confused me, he said that males usually have violent reactions and that he doubted I should worry, which was at three days, so I had a day of false hope, but now I'm back to where I was, and I'm actually afraid I might be crazy, I can't imagine what could be the cause of my symptoms other than herpes, unless I caught one of the colds that are going around within the two days of contact. On the bright side, the "bumps" on my penis don't seem to be getting any worse, and to be honest bumps was a strong word, as they are not raised, just little red marks/dots, like 5 of them. I'd still like an early diagnosis, however, just some insight:(

[keephope558]

go get your blood tested. that will give you the answers you seek.  I hope that even if your actions have no cosequence, that you will remember how you are feeling right now and take that with you. if you are anxious, you could convinve yourself of anything. go get your blood tested for peace of mind.

[makani]

It should also be noted that I had drank pretty heavily that night, so much so that I ended up throwing up for the first time in almost 2 years, so I dunno if any of my symptoms could be attributed to short term alcohol effects. I'm feeling very scared of alcohol and sex right now, and I just want a second chance to use my experience I've gained.