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Herpes anxiety
Hello there,
My situation has been a long lasting issue which has never been resolved and I have had enough. If you can see from my first previous post back in 09 I have an obsession with genital herpes. I'll provide you with my sexual history; I have had 11 sexual partners in total and have been with my current partner for nearly 4 years, I have not had any other sexual partners in this time and neither has he. before our relationship I was in another long term relationship of 2 years (no other partners in this time), in between my current relationship and the past relationship I had 1 other partner. Before those 3 partners comes all the other sexual partners. None of them was a long term relationship and I wouldnt know who eles they were sleeping with at the time. All of the partners from that time where my age (about 14 - 15, apart from 2 who were in their 20's) and I either went to school with them or we grew up in the same area. There was rumor in school that 1 of my partners (who I lost my virginity too), gave another girl from school herpes. Whether this is true, is anyone's guess. But as you can appreciated caused me alot of distress at that age and had the same rumours spread about me.
I never experienced symptoms of herpes and had a blood test maybe a month or so after I slept with said guy. Came back negative but as I had learned later this isnt enough time to be tested and I dont know what type of testing I recieved. After all this I entered into the long term relationship (the 2 year) and at the start of the relationship he developed an infection on his foreskin, it had sores and he was unable to pull the skin back. He was tested via swab and recieved a blood test as did I. Came back negative for herpes, but again, what kind of test did we recieve? Later into the relationship he developed the same problem and it turned out that he had to be circumsised due to some infection, which was apparently not herpes related.
Anyways we broke up, I had a casual relationship with a male friend of mine who was only 16 at the time which ended when I met my current partner. About 6 months into the relationship I noticed that on one side of my labia was tenderness and some swelling. I had a freak out and went straight to my doctor who looked at the area and said it didnt look like anything herpes related but could develope into further symptoms. I also explained to him I had been wearing sanitary pads and had noticed some rubbing from them. he swabbed the area and I was told to come back in a week for results. I watched the area intently for the next few days and nothing ever came of it, it just went away. I went back for results which came back negative. I felt better and moved on. For a DAY! when for some reason I started searching the internet for STD symptoms and started freaking out and thinking I had HIV, this went on for a few weeks until I worked up the courage for testing, was tested for all STD's which all came back negative. But the thing is since that time I have never been able to move on from thinking I have herpes, I have seen many diffrent doctors (about 10) who have examined me and listened to my worries and they all said I dont have herpes. The thing is I dont believe them, there is no reliable testing in Australia and I am afraid blisters are going to pop up any day. I have had so many diffrent vauge symptoms, once I convince myself that I am not having a herpes breakout something eles develops which I start obsessing over. Things I have experienced over the past years (these occur every week, constantly), redness, slight itching, discharge, discomfort during and after sex (this happens every time after sex, which is at least once a week). I have psoriasis which affects my genitals aswell as under my breasts and armpits, I know when I have psoriasis down there as I reconise it and it has been confirmed by a dermatoligist. So this definatly causes irration down there but I feel like I constanly have some diffrent complaint each week. Im so over it, it affects my sex life to the point were I dread sex and would happily never have it again! I dont know what to do if I cant receive proper testing? How am I meant to move on when I dont know what is going on? One thing for sure is that I have an anxiety disorder and have been taking Zoloft since this all began, but it isnt working! I have had too many sexual partners in my short life for my liking and I feel terrible guilt and regret about my past. Do you think I have an std of some sort? What would cause constant long term symptoms?
My situation has been a long lasting issue which has never been resolved and I have had enough. If you can see from my first previous post back in 09 I have an obsession with genital herpes. I'll provide you with my sexual history; I have had 11 sexual partners in total and have been with my current partner for nearly 4 years, I have not had any other sexual partners in this time and neither has he. before our relationship I was in another long term relationship of 2 years (no other partners in this time), in between my current relationship and the past relationship I had 1 other partner. Before those 3 partners comes all the other sexual partners. None of them was a long term relationship and I wouldnt know who eles they were sleeping with at the time. All of the partners from that time where my age (about 14 - 15, apart from 2 who were in their 20's) and I either went to school with them or we grew up in the same area. There was rumor in school that 1 of my partners (who I lost my virginity too), gave another girl from school herpes. Whether this is true, is anyone's guess. But as you can appreciated caused me alot of distress at that age and had the same rumours spread about me.
I never experienced symptoms of herpes and had a blood test maybe a month or so after I slept with said guy. Came back negative but as I had learned later this isnt enough time to be tested and I dont know what type of testing I recieved. After all this I entered into the long term relationship (the 2 year) and at the start of the relationship he developed an infection on his foreskin, it had sores and he was unable to pull the skin back. He was tested via swab and recieved a blood test as did I. Came back negative for herpes, but again, what kind of test did we recieve? Later into the relationship he developed the same problem and it turned out that he had to be circumsised due to some infection, which was apparently not herpes related.
Anyways we broke up, I had a casual relationship with a male friend of mine who was only 16 at the time which ended when I met my current partner. About 6 months into the relationship I noticed that on one side of my labia was tenderness and some swelling. I had a freak out and went straight to my doctor who looked at the area and said it didnt look like anything herpes related but could develope into further symptoms. I also explained to him I had been wearing sanitary pads and had noticed some rubbing from them. he swabbed the area and I was told to come back in a week for results. I watched the area intently for the next few days and nothing ever came of it, it just went away. I went back for results which came back negative. I felt better and moved on. For a DAY! when for some reason I started searching the internet for STD symptoms and started freaking out and thinking I had HIV, this went on for a few weeks until I worked up the courage for testing, was tested for all STD's which all came back negative. But the thing is since that time I have never been able to move on from thinking I have herpes, I have seen many diffrent doctors (about 10) who have examined me and listened to my worries and they all said I dont have herpes. The thing is I dont believe them, there is no reliable testing in Australia and I am afraid blisters are going to pop up any day. I have had so many diffrent vauge symptoms, once I convince myself that I am not having a herpes breakout something eles develops which I start obsessing over. Things I have experienced over the past years (these occur every week, constantly), redness, slight itching, discharge, discomfort during and after sex (this happens every time after sex, which is at least once a week). I have psoriasis which affects my genitals aswell as under my breasts and armpits, I know when I have psoriasis down there as I reconise it and it has been confirmed by a dermatoligist. So this definatly causes irration down there but I feel like I constanly have some diffrent complaint each week. Im so over it, it affects my sex life to the point were I dread sex and would happily never have it again! I dont know what to do if I cant receive proper testing? How am I meant to move on when I dont know what is going on? One thing for sure is that I have an anxiety disorder and have been taking Zoloft since this all began, but it isnt working! I have had too many sexual partners in my short life for my liking and I feel terrible guilt and regret about my past. Do you think I have an std of some sort? What would cause constant long term symptoms?
I've been searching online and I can't seem to find anything, I'll go to my doc and ask again
well i am in melbourne and i have had an igg test.
can you get yourself to the sydney sexual health centre?
can you get yourself to the sydney sexual health centre?
firstly, what do you mean there is no accurate testing in australia? what state are you in?
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