Hi, I'm 19, and less than two hours ago I went to my gyno to see about an awkward outbreak down there. She did some swabs and took a culture sample, and said she would find out in a few days, but was pretty sure it was herpes. And after speaking to her, she feels that it was transmitted orally. I almost broke out into tears right then. I could've vomited from how nauseated I felt. I wanted to die, to just give up. I just cried myself almost sick in the shower. But I don't want to feel this way. I'm worried about my partner, who I don't know how to tell. I'm scared he will just leave me and say he hates me. But my main thought here, is how do I get out of this negative mindset? Am I being ridiculous? Can I live happily without constantly worrying? I'm sorry if I seem dramatic. This is just terrifying to me.