Possible herpes

[bleach1200]

I have had protected sex with a female about a year and half ago. i had std test done and came bak negative for everything including herpes. About 2 months ago, atleast i think it was something of that length i am not sure, could have been longer. i received a handjob from a female. she wiped me down with a towel. I have read that handjobs are relatively safe sex practice. there was no protection on for the handjob. and in april or so i saw a red bump on my penis which did not itch burn or hurt. but puss did come out of it. i was told not to worry about it and whatever was going was not herpes. but i once again have had a red bump which does not hurt sting or burn or itch come up[ and puss does come out when squeezed. i am incredible scared it could be herpes im just soo scared. i dont know what i got the handjob. i thought it was safe iunno. i just want to know if it is sounding like herpes or not. should i be concerned. i would appreciate any assistance. please help.

[bleach1200]

I just wanna be back to being a good person never having to worry about these things. why did i do this. im such a failure. how do i live a life like this. i dont know why i keep thinking i ahve herpes do i have herpes. what would my parents think of me. im just a shameful person. i really wish i didnt have to worry about these things. what am i doing. i have like no real motivation any more. i feel so beaten down. i want to just be ok. soo much stress. i just want to be ok.

[bleach1200]

does it sound like herpes to you?

[bleach1200]

i feel that it is all mental perception
im just gonna get my test for hsv on monday
after that if i am clear then i am feel that i will be satisfied

[gracefromHHP]

nothing we can do to assist you at this point. you need to be seen for your symptoms each time you have them.

[bleach1200]

i was given a steroid cream because he believed i have dry skin or something like that which lead to some discolouration, should i be concerned about the puss that does not stop?
it is very similar to other bump i feel. I think redness is from pop i tried agghhh
i just seem to have no end of stress
i think i use this site for support so i would appreciate if i could maybe get a response.
thank you.

[bleach1200]

i put a bandaid on it and the the puss actually went through the bandaid, it is pretty red i think it is from making it bleed first. i dont think it is herpes cause it does not hurt well just a tiny but when i touch it, but no itching or burning. test is monday just wanna get this over with. it does not sound like herpes to me becuase the location of it changed to quickly herpes usally happens pretty close to orginal spot.

[bleach1200]

It does not hurt itch or cause any disconfort it was jsut red and it popped puss came out but there was blood aswell. it kinda stung to pop but i feel like that was from using nails or something.

[bleach1200]

I have test Monday
I don't think herpes can happen this fast after another

[bleach1200]

its one thing after another

[bleach1200]

no I have not
I know I should
but yeah
the thing with puss has healed over and there was no scan or anything on it but another problem has occured in another part of penis at the bottom near the top of it I saw a red bump so I proceeded to touch it
did not hurt or itch but I tried to pop it to see if puss came out at first there was blood but then puss came out and came out again at night when I squeeze does not itch or hurt

[gracefromHHP]

have you talked to a professional about your anxiety yet?

[bleach1200]

never really looked at my body there either though.
i jsut wanna go back to being a kid stress free not having any of these problems or worrying about this. never thought i would have to worry about these things

[bleach1200]

the stress sometimes is to much i guess i am growing up and things in body change.
iunno i keep thinking it is herpes or something agghh
i does not fit description. yet i keep thinking it is.
i never seen anything wiht puss on my genitals until now.

[bleach1200]

Thank you.
i went to him and showed him but i think the bumps had gone away.
he gave me a forum testing me for simplex 2. He said i was at no risk from that, but i insisted i get tested.
i just gotta realize that as we get older our body gets changes i guess. Not everything that happens down below is a sign of a std. I am fairly sure before he tested me herpes simplex 1 and 2. I gotta know that jsut because a little bit of puss came out there were no symptoms of herpes. no itching or pain. many people told me that if you have a herpes sore you will know because it generally very painful. I guess it may have just been follitius or some infected hair folicle. Truthfully before this incident i never really looked down in that region before. and the pinkish mark he says is from dryness. so i am jsut going ot assum i am good and get the test done as precaution. He told me next time if i see something like herpes come and see him right away. I took soo much stress from this, i feel pretty stupid. i should learn from this i guess.
thank you for your support and advice

[gracefromHHP]

you were at no risk from a hand job. your anxiety is the real issue here. talk to a professional about it so you can learn better coping mechanisms :)

[bleach1200]

i am sorry. i just feel scared and nervous. i am just tearing up thinking about it. i just realy wish i could not have done any of these things and feel back to being a kid. i only recently turned 20. i never really thought i would be goign through stuff like this. i feel like i let my whole family down. i guess im jsut regretful and just feel ashamed.

[gracefromHHP]

I have no idea what more you would like me to tell you? I've told you previously this doesn't sound like herpes but yet you continue to post instead of following up with your provider properly.

[bleach1200]

would it be herpes though?
no burn, no itch
it looks more like a pink spot
it is also fairly smooth i will be seen but i dont really know if it is herpes
i feel like i will not be able to sleep. I ahve psoted on other forums they alls ay that is not likely herpes. the only thing is that it is a different colour sport on penis. it is jsut slightly pink, smooth, and does not hurt or itch.
i jsut need some good new or some comfort so that i can sleep.
please just help me reassure my self. i swear i did not ever think that i would be concerned sabout herpes form a handjob. i dont understand why i am getting soo worked up over something i might now have.

[gracefromHHP]

if you have a rash , be seen.

[bleach1200]

does it really resemble herpes?

[bleach1200]

everyone is telling me that i am overeacting and that my chances for herpes is close to zero. and symptoms are not one that resembles herpes. im incredibly scared now. i dont know what to do..

[bleach1200]

.........
so i  have symptoms for herpes?
omggggg
it does not hurt or itch though
i only got a handjob
i thought it was suppose to be safe
omg

[gracefromHHP]

really should wait and get it done in another week or so.

you have symptoms so be seen now for those.

[bleach1200]

I am thinking of going tomorrow
is a herpes test accurate at 11 weeks?