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I am in SHOCK!
Hi Ladies!
A little history:
In had dozens of failed IUI's, 2 failed IVF's and my DS born in 2004 from IVF. Then I had 4 more IVF's all failed the last IVF was in July 2010. Last week I did an HPT and it was positive!!! All on my own. Problem, I have very irregular periods, no idea when I ovulated or fertilized. Went to my RE and Beta was good but it isn't doubling every 24 hours. We have no idea how far along I am, just figuring about 6 weeks since I tested positive over a week ago with HPT.
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I have read that it can double every 2-4 days and I am in the 3-4 day range so do you think it is okay? I am so worried. We have our first u/s on Monday 11/29.
Thank you!!!!
A little history:
In had dozens of failed IUI's, 2 failed IVF's and my DS born in 2004 from IVF. Then I had 4 more IVF's all failed the last IVF was in July 2010. Last week I did an HPT and it was positive!!! All on my own. Problem, I have very irregular periods, no idea when I ovulated or fertilized. Went to my RE and Beta was good but it isn't doubling every 24 hours. We have no idea how far along I am, just figuring about 6 weeks since I tested positive over a week ago with HPT.
Friday 317
Monday 663
Wednesday 844
Friday 1385
I have read that it can double every 2-4 days and I am in the 3-4 day range so do you think it is okay? I am so worried. We have our first u/s on Monday 11/29.
Thank you!!!!
Hi
Thank you. I just wanted to check back in. I have had my share of crying and am finally getting back to living life. I took the meds and had my induced m/c on 12/20. My beta was over 50,000 but no heartbeat. We are now just taking our time and letting nature do its thing.
Thanks!!!
Danielle
Thank you. I just wanted to check back in. I have had my share of crying and am finally getting back to living life. I took the meds and had my induced m/c on 12/20. My beta was over 50,000 but no heartbeat. We are now just taking our time and letting nature do its thing.
Thanks!!!
Danielle
Hi danidee - i'm so sorry that things didn't look good at your ultrasound - it must be so tough right now and worse when people say insensitive things - people who don't understand say the craziest things sometimes and it's really hard not to let it bother you. nothing makes it any easier and all anyone can say is that they are so sorry and they are there for you. saying things that diminish what you've been through are really inappropriate. We are here any time you need to vent - I pray that your miracle might still be round the corner. xx
Thank you so much ladies. I am in denial- but today's u/s showed no growth and beta rose again, but only to 15,000 from 11,000 four days ago. If I am to miscarry at least it would be naturally as I really have a problem with ending a pregnancy when I see no reason to end it as I have had no pain, bleeding, or other complications.
I can't believe this is happening and I have only confided in a few friends but they really say the wrong thing to try and make me feel better. One said at least it wasn't an IVF pregnancy-like that makes it more/less wanted??? Another said that many people don't have such early prenatal care and don't even know they are pg/miscarry- DUH-I am high risk and go to a specialist for over 10+ years-invested millions of emotions, time, pain, and money to try and have children and I am considered high risk so I am monitored- and I DID know I was pg because I felt pg and took a HPT, and was confirmed.
Anyway, love you guys, thanks for your compassion. Please know that everyone is different and I wish you all a very happy and healthy 9 months (or 7 more months to the July group) If our miracle is out there, I will certainly let you know when it finds us again! I have read that ppl are very fertile after a miscarriage so you never know. In the meantime I will take it one day at a time, eat lots of comfort foods, and find comfort in knowing that everything happens for a reason-even if I don't know the reason yet.
I can't believe this is happening and I have only confided in a few friends but they really say the wrong thing to try and make me feel better. One said at least it wasn't an IVF pregnancy-like that makes it more/less wanted??? Another said that many people don't have such early prenatal care and don't even know they are pg/miscarry- DUH-I am high risk and go to a specialist for over 10+ years-invested millions of emotions, time, pain, and money to try and have children and I am considered high risk so I am monitored- and I DID know I was pg because I felt pg and took a HPT, and was confirmed.
Anyway, love you guys, thanks for your compassion. Please know that everyone is different and I wish you all a very happy and healthy 9 months (or 7 more months to the July group) If our miracle is out there, I will certainly let you know when it finds us again! I have read that ppl are very fertile after a miscarriage so you never know. In the meantime I will take it one day at a time, eat lots of comfort foods, and find comfort in knowing that everything happens for a reason-even if I don't know the reason yet.
I am sorry you have to go through so much stress on your TTC journey. tcr21 is right in that people (like myself) don't have a clue as to what you've been through. I can't believe your doctor's office was so rude! I can't imagine the anticipation and stress and time and patience and every other emotion out there that you've had to invest into TTC - I so hope that you keep that sticky baby dust!!! I just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you and hoping these next couple of weeks go by fast! FXFXFX!!! Big warm hugs to you!
danidee - there's nothing that makes this any easier - it must be so difficult - i think when people haven't struggled with infertility it makes it very hard for them to understand or know what to say - just breathe - i have measured 4 days behind from the very start and that's from IVF where we know the exact date of conception. - still hoping the dates are just slightly off - i'll be praying for you this week x
Hi tcr21
I Thank you so much! I really hope I can have a similiar outcome. I am so sad and haven't shared my pregnancy or possible miscarriage with family b/c I really don't want them to tell me it will be okay. At this point... it is not okay!!!! I almost wish I didn't go for early u/s so I wouldn't have this stress. Another week and my answers should be more clear as I am entering what I believe to be week 7/8. Thanks for your support
I Thank you so much! I really hope I can have a similiar outcome. I am so sad and haven't shared my pregnancy or possible miscarriage with family b/c I really don't want them to tell me it will be okay. At this point... it is not okay!!!! I almost wish I didn't go for early u/s so I wouldn't have this stress. Another week and my answers should be more clear as I am entering what I believe to be week 7/8. Thanks for your support
hi dani - i replied to your other post on the main forum - When my hcg was measuring at 11,684 - there was no fetal pole or heartbeat - that was just before 6 weeks. one week later there was a tiny fetal pole and a tiny heartbeat. i am praying your dates are just slightly off - perhaps you are a week behind where you thought....
this must be so hard - good luck and don't be pushed into a d & c if it's not right for you - many women prefer to let things happen naturally.. good luck
this must be so hard - good luck and don't be pushed into a d & c if it's not right for you - many women prefer to let things happen naturally.. good luck
Hi
Sorry it took so long to update but I had password problems and couldn't get it reset until today.
Thank you so much for checking in, but it's not good news. There is a baby-or the start of one, but they still haven't seen/heard the heartbeat. My Beta is still rising and is over 11,000 now and I am approx. 7 weeks at this point. I go in next on Tuesday to be sure before we consider our options. I am stll numb and do not want to make any decisions, I want to leave it in the hands of nature. This is by far the hardest part of my TTC journey. I am not miscarrying naturally at this point, but the Dr. wants me to end the pregnancy. I am scared of scaring from a D&C. I am scared of making the wrong decision.
Sorry it took so long to update but I had password problems and couldn't get it reset until today.
Thank you so much for checking in, but it's not good news. There is a baby-or the start of one, but they still haven't seen/heard the heartbeat. My Beta is still rising and is over 11,000 now and I am approx. 7 weeks at this point. I go in next on Tuesday to be sure before we consider our options. I am stll numb and do not want to make any decisions, I want to leave it in the hands of nature. This is by far the hardest part of my TTC journey. I am not miscarrying naturally at this point, but the Dr. wants me to end the pregnancy. I am scared of scaring from a D&C. I am scared of making the wrong decision.
hi danidee - how did it go today?
Thanks!
I am cautiously optimistic at this point. I feel like burying my head in the sand, but that won't do me any good. So.... until Thursday.
I am still doing well, no cramps, no bleeding. Let's see what 48 hours brings!
Dani
I am cautiously optimistic at this point. I feel like burying my head in the sand, but that won't do me any good. So.... until Thursday.
I am still doing well, no cramps, no bleeding. Let's see what 48 hours brings!
Dani
Wow - what a rollercoaster - your doctor was a bit insensitive!!! sometimes they just don't think about what this means to us or how much you have gone through.
It sounds like it might just be early - your HCG is still rising which is a good sign so don't give up hope - at my first ultrasound I was 5 weeks and 4 days and there was nothing but a sack - one week later there was a yolk sack and a tiny fetal pole measuring about 5mm - make sure they let you give it some time and don't jump to conclusions - especially since you are not sure of the dates - good luck - it's very hard to go through the unknown - the waiting is hell! let us know how it goes on Thursday - xx
It sounds like it might just be early - your HCG is still rising which is a good sign so don't give up hope - at my first ultrasound I was 5 weeks and 4 days and there was nothing but a sack - one week later there was a yolk sack and a tiny fetal pole measuring about 5mm - make sure they let you give it some time and don't jump to conclusions - especially since you are not sure of the dates - good luck - it's very hard to go through the unknown - the waiting is hell! let us know how it goes on Thursday - xx
Thanks for checking in :)
I am not sure what's going on, but I am sad. The Dr. I saw was so insensitive, and didn't bother to look over my chart before meeting with me.
The U/S showed a sac... nothing else... but we have no idea how far along I am, or if its too early. The sac was not there last week when I had an U/S.
When I walked into the RE's office she stated that I had my retrival on July... and I cut her off saying that this is not from my retrival. Than she asked about my last period/ovulation and I explained that I have very irregular cycles and was surprised by this miracle, and she said "yes, but unfortuntely it doesn't look good" and I have two options D&C or natural miscarriage.
She than was asking me if I had bleeding and cramping-NO
I than added that it could still be early as I have no idea when I ovulated and I think we should wait another week to see if the baby is okay, she than said she would be okay with that if my hcg is still rising and there is no bleeding/cramps. Well my hcg went up to 2500's.
So now I am so sad...We have waited our whole life for this blessing, amd have been through so much. After our failed IVF in July I cried and cried putting closure to my ttc journey as IVF is no longer an option. Why after closing that door do I get blessed with this miracle to have it dangled in my hopes and dreams and possibly taken away.
So now I have to wonder until Thursday... I go for a repeat U/S on Thursday.
I am not sure what's going on, but I am sad. The Dr. I saw was so insensitive, and didn't bother to look over my chart before meeting with me.
The U/S showed a sac... nothing else... but we have no idea how far along I am, or if its too early. The sac was not there last week when I had an U/S.
When I walked into the RE's office she stated that I had my retrival on July... and I cut her off saying that this is not from my retrival. Than she asked about my last period/ovulation and I explained that I have very irregular cycles and was surprised by this miracle, and she said "yes, but unfortuntely it doesn't look good" and I have two options D&C or natural miscarriage.
She than was asking me if I had bleeding and cramping-NO
I than added that it could still be early as I have no idea when I ovulated and I think we should wait another week to see if the baby is okay, she than said she would be okay with that if my hcg is still rising and there is no bleeding/cramps. Well my hcg went up to 2500's.
So now I am so sad...We have waited our whole life for this blessing, amd have been through so much. After our failed IVF in July I cried and cried putting closure to my ttc journey as IVF is no longer an option. Why after closing that door do I get blessed with this miracle to have it dangled in my hopes and dreams and possibly taken away.
So now I have to wonder until Thursday... I go for a repeat U/S on Thursday.
Danidee - how was your ultrasound today? your numbers do seem a little slow to rise, but all pregnancies are different - how did it go? hoping you have some good news x
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