I felt the same way when I went back to work! It was so hard. I did the same thing, just goin back one day a week. Thays a good way to do it. Once I actually started back and survived my first day I was kind of glad to be back. I did miss my job while I was away. It is so hard though, you're not going crazy at all
I can completely relate. Genevieve is my third baby and I find myself much more anxious and cautious then I ever was with her two older brothers. I was so mellow and laid back with them.
Thanks girls, needed to hear that! The day actually went really well, and I actually enjoyed it! Bailey was fine, but happy to see me. Tomorrow, I'm the same way, I was more mellow and laid back in my twenties with my first two babies, I didn't mind who looked after them, and I just don't remember being worried about them falling over and hitting their head or something not like now with bailey. I seem to freak and panic with a lot of things with him, and I wish I wouldn't! Maybe it's the ten year gap and now I'm just older and more cautious I dunno.
And you know what's weird too, most people say you get more laid back the more kids you have!!
I had a bad separation moment with Kendrick..it was my hubby and I first wedding anniversaryniversary his mom came out for Arkansas and she was going to watch the baby all day and night until the next morning..I really thought I would be ok but boy I was wrong all day at Disneyland I saw lots of babies and I missed Kendrick so much I like broke down crying I told my hubby I didn't want to get a hotel room I wanted to go home to Kendrick he didn't understand at first but he got it after...I also totally know where u r coming from about thinking u r the only person that can take care of him the best..like I'm getting better at people watching Kendrick as he gets older bc honestly like who wants to deal with a teething screaming cranky baby no one lol but me and my hubby which is a duh but my dad watches him on Fri for like 8 hours then my mom will watch him some nights so the hubs and I can do date night....what I think it is for me also that I have anxiety leaving Kendrick also is that he has a routine that he is used to Like when my mom puts him down for a nap she will let him cry until he falls asleep
And I hold him and rock him to sleep so I get anxious about that its a hard process
Kat, that's great that you can leave him with your dad for 8 hours! Is that because you go to work or is that for time out? I would never leave bailey with my dad at all as he smokes inside his house, and I doubt he'd go outside for baileys sake. Sad I know, but true. I think when Bailey gets older and is walking it will become better, as he is only a little boy and still so vulnerable I feel. Like, I'd love to work 2 days a week as money wise we'd be better off, but I wouldn't feel comfortable with daycare until he was over 1 and walking. I never startedy other two on daycare until they were 2 years old.
Im glad it went over smoothly. I hate leaving my kids. For any period of time. :(