=[ i am less than a month away

[ttc23412]

from my due date. Well my would have been due date. I shared my story with a total stranger today, and realized that i am 100% not okay. I have pushed it off for so long and havent let my self heal. I feel so empty hearted and angry. It has been months and i have not even been able to pass it out of my mind for a day. I dont think i will ever truely heal. Sometimes i just wish i had someone to talk to that i could truely open up too. I feel so alone sometimes....

Im sorry for the rant....

[malarkin]

Hi

I am new to this site. we found out that we had lost our baby 3 weeks ago. I had to be induced so had to go through the whole birth process in hospital. September the 4th will always be the birthday of my little boy. I am heart broken, but knowing that I will always have that date comforts me a little. It will always be a day for reflection, thoughts and sadness but I hope to be able to use it as a celebration of the short life of my tiny baby who did not get to join our family in this world, once the shock of the whole experience has settled.

It is such a hard time, full of so many mixed emotions. We are going to try again as soon as possible, but nothing can ever replace a life no matter how short.

My thoughts are with all of you who have lost.

x

[ttc23412]

thank you everyone who responded, and im sooo sooo sorry for everyone loss. But all our babies are up in heaven together.

I take comfort in this site because only you women who have gone through it know the pain,

[Foreverxo]

I also understand. I lost my daughter 2 years ago, i was 7months pregnant, and i'm only 19! and last tuesday my boyfriend and I lost our first baby. We were so excited, and we lost the heartbeat a week before that, but the doctors told us to wait for the baby to miscarry itself.

We are very anxious to try again, but sometimes i just break down and cry. I've had people ask me if theres something wrong with me since i've lost 2 children.. and that is the worst thing.

This website is a god send, so many supportive people, and amazing women who have gone through the same thing we have. you will get your baby hun, and I will pray for you.

[sherry3]

I just had my m\c today. I feel your pain, its like a horrible dream. I sit at home and think why me? I know it happens to many women but I to feel like a part of me is missing. I feel like nobody cares or understands. THank-god we have this site. We are in the same bad boat, I hope you can find some confort in this site. We are hear and listening and care. May time heal our wounds..

[smr08]

I'm so sorry for your loss. You will find alot of women here that are going through the same thing, myself being one. I dreaded that day so much, I just wanted to sleep through it. In the end I survived. The 1 year anniversary of the delivery of my son is coming in Oct. and i'm fearing that also. You will get through it, but I won't say that it's easy:(  try and keep yourself as busy as you can that day. I also get constant reminders, e-mail, magazines, coupons and samples of formula, I keep everything in a box as I don't have the heart to throw it away. I wish the best and if you ever need to talk i'm here.......Lori

[ttc23412]

Thank you for the responces. I lost at 12 weeks, dnc at 17 weeks, It was really hard. It doesnt help that i still get the baby week to week on my email, and i cant bring myself to spam it, so now i dont even open my email..

[frank_noahsmommy]

i don't think one can ever forget a mc. It was part of you, even if it was not for long. next month will also be the due date from my 1st mc and i still know to the day how many weeks i would have been. I know what you are going through! I just had a second mc last month and i am still not ok from the first. It will get better but you will never forget, and should not have to. i have my good and bad days and feel like nobody understands me untill i found this website i really did not have anyone to share these feelings to, not even my hubby (he did not take it as hard as me). Things will get better!!!

[hope4lilbaby]

It's okay to feel this way.  I don't think one can forget m/c.  It's kind of like when someone close to you passes away.  You have good days and bad days.  Days when you miss that person and days when you don't think about the loss that much.  I had a D&C done last Wednesday.  It's been a week and it seems like I am getting better, but there are times when I start thinking about it and I become sad again.  My mom even talked about her experience with her miscarriage and I can tell she hasn't also forgotten her experience.  She still feels sad.