Renewed Hope - would love to share

[youme123]

Hi all.  I shared this with a couple of people and thought maybe someone could benefit from my recent experience.  This weekend I had an appointment with my therapist.  I usually see her twice a month, but I couldn't see her the week I had a m/c because I went away that weekend.  So, this past Saturday was the first time I saw her after my m/c on 3/9.  Anyway, she brought out so many feelings that I was bottling up for the sake of self preservation (ie: suppression).  While it was extremely healthy for me to talk, I found myself feeling completely empty and sad upon the conclusion of our meeting that carried over into Sunday's full-blown depression.  One thing my therapist suggested to me on Saturday was to seek out some sort of natural health or wellness program and do it.  So, my DH implored me to go on Sunday to the local wellness center and get information on what I can do to make myself feel better naturally (no medicines, etc...).  The people were absolutely wonderful and encouraged me to try a few different things to see what I feel good with, so they put me in right away for a healing massage.  Boy, what an amazing experience. The massage therapist talked to me for what seemed an eternity about me and my feelings, and she was so compassionate we both cried.  Then, I had such a relaxing massage and felt so much more relaxed for that hour of my life yesterday.  She encouraged me to try accupuncture on Wednesday night, and I'm going to try yoga for beginners on Saturday.  Hopefully one of these things will work for me and help to bring peace to my inner turmoil and healing to my body and spirit.  I cannot tell you what an experience this weekend was for me.  I feel like a new person today - someone who has something to look forward to - peace may be just around the corner for me, and it is literally only 7 miles away from my house!  Now, I know these things can be expensive, but this place has mom discounts and mom to be discounts and age discounts and all kinds of discounts.  I encourage anyone who feels lost to seek something out to help them - outside of the house. Sometimes it's good to get out and be among other people - other people who are looking for healing and peace.  It also may sound so new age, and I'm not that type of person.  I'm just someone who needs a hug, a lot of them, and for me, this may be the ticket.  Anyway, I never thought I'd get out of this terrible place my mind is in, but I think I can with help.  No AF today and who knows when the first will come, but I really feel like I have something else to work on - me - and I'm hopeful that maybe this will inspire someone to find something that works for them.  The hardest part for me was getting out of the house to find it.  I hope I have!  Peace to all of you and have a wonderful day.

[kleam]

this was so helpful and inspiring.  i'm happy that you found such an amazing group, and after my d&c my friend performed reiki on me, which i am the HUGE skeptic, but whatever it was, it helped me.  i felt a shift, and maybe it was simply someone giving me good intentions.  i saw my therapist today, but i feel like i've been getting my closure and "healing" though other means, although, he's helpful when it comes time to just vent.

i agree, making sure you're well is key.  if and when i try again, i want my body to be a happy and welcoming and wonderful home for the little one.  i wouldn't wish my experience on anyone.  it's just a very terrible place to be.  keep your chin up.

[ArmyPrincess819]

Thanks for sharing your story. For me personally I have been getting chiropractic care from all the back pain and neck pain I'm having and I have been having weekly individual and couple's therapy. I find some weeks are better than others. Although you and I are at different stages in our lives we have something in common the pain and grief of a m/c. Let me know how the accupuncture works out I have heard tremendous things about it. I guess it can help everything from back pain to infertility to pregnancy. I wish you the best I hope you feel better soon. I'm always here if you need to talk......

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