Venting, I Must Say

[Latrice414]

I was doing great and feeling ok, until i looked at the calendar and realized this was the month that i was going to have my baby shower, thanksgiving weekend bcuz my granny always come in town for that holiday. I wouldve been 28 weeks today. I all of a sudden got so emotionally, its been 5 months since my m/c and still not preggo yet. Got period in july, didnt really try in august, tried in september, boy did we try. October only bd the day of ovulation, i dont think it was enough, and not to add the forplay,(i wonder if every woman tht got preggo never did oral, since they say that the bacteria will kill the sperm) so my hopes are not high for this ovulation.

After september i decided i would not tell DF when i was ovulating, being that is was so stressful when i was telling him. He has no children and wants kids but doesnt want it to b stressful. Only if men new, if we bd'd around there schedule, it would take longer to get preggo.

I just needed to vent a little bit, im tryn to take some deep breaths so this does not get me down and further than how im feeling.

[Latrice414]

I was thinking the same thing Steph, she had to at least had one m/c. The majority of her kids are like stepping stones, one year apart, two at the most.

[steph9803]

I watch all of those shows! I was watching babies: special delivery last night crying like a baby...And the Duggars...WOW I have never seen anything like them before! I want a big family but I would never have 18 kids...I was talking to DH the other day saying that she had to have had at least one m/c?  

[Latrice414]

I would like to say that i am so sorry for everyone's loss,, for it is very emotional to go threw something like that.

Hey Dani, yea, i took a mini break, i had to get my house in order, DF graduated last sunday(he lived in Georgia) and has moved to wisconsin with me, so i was back in fourth helpn pack his things and stuff.  And i did miss you guz, i also saw that a lot of the girls who was in the fourm/2ww during the time i was are now finally gettin BFP's

TY ladies for listening and i hope we all get BFP's soon, i guess watching TLC: bringing home baby in the first 36 hours aint helping lol, ive even been watching the Dugards, i think that is there last name, the family with 17 kids and she has one on the way.

Well i hope you ladies have a gr8 day today, my day is much better than yesterday(hugzz)) to all

[Dani711]

Welcome back Latice...haven't seen you here in a while...you helped me so much when I joined this a long time ago.  I totally know how you feel.  Our baby was due in OCT. and it was hard to get the phone calls from people we never told that we had lost it, asking how it was to be a mom and dad.  
All I can say is hang in there!  There is a really supportive group of ladies on here now for you!  
You are so right about the problems with DH not wanting to be stressed about ovulation...well hello!  If we didn't watch for the O days, it is almost impossible that we would ever have a baby.  We have been BD on the right days for 5 months now and no luck...it is all so frustrating, but hang in there and good to here from you again!

[leah2365]

I am so very sorry you are having a bad day.  I found this site about a week ago because I was having one of those bad days, and my miscarriage was back in January.  I found out I was losing the baby the weekend of my b-day, and had the d&c the day after.  So I know how you must be dreading Thanksgiving.  These women here are great.  Not that the day isn't still sad, knowing that my little one should have been 3 monthes old next week, but everyone here has such a great way of letting you know your not alone and picking you up when you are down.  I hope your day gets better, and try to keep in mind that you can still celebrate the holiday with the people who are here.  Your BFP will come, and I hope everone else's will too.  Baby dust

[bam1014]

We are all right here with you.  I was reminded that I would have been 20 weeks this week and we would know the sex of our baby.  I almost thought about telling DH this, but I've had a hard time talking to him about the m/c.  There are some things that are just really hard for him to express his feelings on.  We all have our moments of weakness, that sometimes just requires a good cry.  We are women afterall and entitled to that.

Take a deep breath, count your blessings and just keep putting one foot in front of the other.

God bless.  (and XXSSBD to us all)

[nunu1977]

I would be close to 18 weeks now. with twins I can imagine how large my tummy would be. I cried on Sunday about it! I just have those days when I think about it more than other days. I was walking back form taking the kids to the bus stop this morning and was wondering how big I should be now. All I can think about is getting pregnant with twins again. I know I will be happy with even one baby but twins would be so awesome!

[steph9803]

I hope today is going better for you...There is always room here for you to vent whenever needed..Like nunu said we all have our days.  I would have been 22 weeks yesterday and I keep imagining how much my little baby would be moving and bouncing around in my belly...Now I just really want a BFP before Christmas...I hope you get yours soon!  

[DUKE2008]

Hi there I know exactly how you are feeling i had a MC 2 years this xmas and still no baby is so upsetting and so stressfull just wish for one it was easy .. nothings easy I guess and then you see people getting preg so easy and you feel so alone but there are loads of people out there that are goingthrough the same...

try be stong it will get easier xxx

[nunu1977]

I am sorry that you have had a bad day! Dont worry about venting... all the Ladies on here at some point just let it all out and you will be surprised how many others are having a bad day with you.
I truly hope that you can still enjoy Thanksgiving even though you are missing out on your baby shower! I hope you will get a BFP with this next cycle!
Not telling DH when you are "O" is always a good idea if stress is setting in! I found out my twins didn't have a heartbeat on Sep 10th and had a D&C on the 11th. when i was having bad AF cramps 4 weeks later with no AF I later found out that AF couldn't flow because my cervix had closed. the Dr opened it for me (not very nice) and I am now waiting for AF to arrive around the 7th. Also A cyst burst on my right ovary last week. DH and I haven't had the stress back of TTC conceive because i haven't really had a cycle that i can go by do know for when "O" was. but if i dont get a BFP by the arrival of AF then ill have to wait and see how it goes as to if I tell DH when im "O".