I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's perfectly normal to grieve the loss of your baby. I was very depressed for around 2 months after my first miscarriage. Since I had around a month to prepare for my second miscarriage, the depression wasn't as bad but it still took a good 2 - 3 weeks to feel like myself. I still get sad when I'm around babies and visibly pregnant friends, but I don't get teary anymore.
Don't rush yourself or beat yourself up for feeling the loss -- you need to grieve and get all of that emotion out. Unfortunately, it's a process that takes time. One day soon you'll wake up and it won't be so bad. Hang in there.
-Eirlis
I'm so sorry for your loss. There is no time line on when you may beging to feel better. It's truly different for each of us. Joining our forum was a great step towards finding some peace. How about seeing a counselor? There are professionals out there that focus on m/c and grief. You may find that to help. Grief is a terrible road to walk down and it can be quite bumpy. The road can start to feel like it goes on forever. Our bodies need time to heal it take 3 or more cycles for everything to regulate. Our general health may be the affected the most. It's very important to have a follow up app w your dr to ensure that your body is healing and that there are no signs of any complications. I wish you the best and I hope sooner than later this part of your life is just a distant memory. I'm here if you need to talk. Feel better soon!
AP