I guess I'll start by listing my mental health problems. I have "major depressive disorder", social anxiety, GAD, and panic disorder, but that can't possibly be all. No.... I have been deemed treatment resistant. I have taken.... well, let me put it this way: my psychiatrist recommended electroshock therapy. SSRI's don't work. SNRI's don't work. I don't know what Wellbutrin is, but that's not working with Lexapro, which is the combo I'm currently on. On top of that, I'm basically immune to benzo's. I shake constantly, especially my right forearm and hand, and when I say my hand shakes, imagine one of those vibrating massage things you can get at a drug store, except it's in my hand and it's much more powerful.
My depression however has made me a non-functioning person. I can barely get out of bed, and I wind up going back up to my bed within a few hours of getting up and just laying there, feeling like I got hit by a truck. I don't enjoy anything anymore, and haven't for around a year now.
My question is, what other options do I have? There's no way in hell I'm doing electroshock therapy. I've been burying my emotions for so long that I can hardly ever explain to my therapist why I'm anxious or depressed, and I feel bad for him, because I know he's good and he's doing everything he can, but I've just tossed my emotions out of my mind for so long that it's pretty much automatic now. We're slowly making progress at least, but I want to be able to function in the meantime.
So doc, can you recommend other treatment options and possibly give me some medical websites with information about them? I would greatly appreciate it.