I guess I am here to complain, vent, need some inspiring words perhaps?
I have been sick for at least 2 weeks. Finished antibiotic today, no help, worse actually. Going to call PCP tomorrow. Haven't slept from this horrific cough in about a week. Not good for my mental health and physical. My ribs and head hurt. (I have had this 2 times in my life and actually broke a rib each time.)
The main issue at the moment is my left knee. I wear a brace on my right leg for foot drop, for about 2 years. From compensating for my gait, I "ruined" my leg knee. My grandma and my mom had terrible arthritis early in life. They were both born with dislocated hips which was a big factor with their arthritis. I too, have/had a bit of trouble with congenital hip issues, but not dislocated. I also have a congenitally small spine, which led to my 2 herniated discs in my neck, that led to surgery 2 years ago.
Anyway, last week I had an U/S and Xray of my knee. (PCP was afraid of a blood clot, as I have a history of those as well, just not in my leg, I have been am coumadin for over 4 years now, and will be for life).
PCP called, and told me no blood clot, thank G-d, which I already knew from ultrasonographer.
But the xray showed very narrowing something space, with cartilage almost gone and it is bone on bone, I also have bone spurs as well. I see him this week for F/U. He said my gait has progressed the arthritis in my left knee. He will be sending me to a rheumatologist. I am in so much pain. I have been doing swim aerobics for the last 2 months, and have really trying to become healthier and lose weight. I know that is a factor as well.
I am just really down, discouraged and depressed right now. Tears are flowing, and the cough continues. I know lots of my emotions are from lack of sleep, fever, and sickness. My hubby brought up my moms walker, and I need it. I foresee a wheelchair in my future sooner than later.
I also need to give notice at work this week. It has been too stressful, neuro has STRONGLY advised me to quit many many months ago. It is an ongoing conversation I have with her. But now with the knee it is a must. My job involved standing constantly.
Cant believe it. I am 43 going on 100.
So sad right now. Thanks for listening, Michelle
I know there are so so many people worse off, but at the moment I am seeing the glass half empty. In the woe is me place. stinks.