The other day I was at work, and noticed a woman, and I couldn’t help but notice I was staring. All of a sudden I had a horrible guilty feeling come over me, because I have a girlfriend who I love very much. I felt horrible. I thought to myself “does this mean I don’t love my girlfriend”. One thought lead to another, which snowballed, meaning my OCD took over as usual, and I am not left in this horrible situation.
I have very bad OCD, Depression, anxiety…the list can go on for a while.
The negative thoughts about my love for my girlfriend have been going on for about week now, and it’s turned into an emotional numbness. My head feels so overwhelmed, and I feel like I can’t think anymore. I can’t eat, sleep, or even think about her without feeling nauseous. I can’t shake these bad thoughts that have left me almost paralyzed.
My Psychiatrist told me today that my Paxil and OCD do this to me.
I feel empty on the inside, and its literally killing me. I don’t like waking up, or going to work. I won’t enjoy life unless I feel like I have my girlfriend back.
Can someone please reassure me that it will pass (again), and that it from OCD?
I was deeply in love one minute, and then like this another?
Thanks.
Some other information about me:
I am on Paxil, have sever panid disorder, social problems, OCD (clearly)
I am ussualy obsessive about my health, but not since this. My doctor says I obsess over one thing at a time.
I feel like can't stop focusing on the bad.
I think Benzodiazepine keep doing this to me, considering this ocd thing with my gf has happened around the same time as me taking it heavily.