Hello i am a 45 yr old woman who was diagnosed with depression/ anxiety in 06 i was sorta stable with depression but now something is making it worse doc thinks it is perimenopause but the anxiety is worse i have started digging at toenails until they bleed or i pull them completley out i did this before and had two big toenails removed,but now it's started up worse than ever and it's all toes but little ones i have had several infections and i try to stop but i can't i will be digging sometimes for hours and not realize it until it hurts then i get upset cry and then do it again my toenails and feet are really dry and it starts with a little piece and i can't get it and i keep digging and digging cause i think there is something still in there usualy there isn't my mind just keep telling me that i am going to be put on celexa to see if that will help i am currently on imipramine but it doesn't help anxiety and now my depression isn't responding to imipramine as well i just hope this med will help cause after feeling somewhat "normal" for a couple of years to fall back this far is frustating
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I'm sorry you are feeling this way again. I'm very close to your age, I'm 47, and we sound like we have had a similar OCD/anxiety flare-up. I too thought that perimenapause might have something to do with what I went through but not entirely. I was doing well for years and this past May I had a trigger, septic system died, and I went over that OCD cliff once again. I wasn't anxiety free or OCD free those years prior to May but it was managable like you have been with your depression.
In any case, I'm wondering if there is a trigger that you may just not be aware of. Or if you thought about it, maybe you can pinpoint something. In any case, we are where we are.
It is good that you are going to try celexa. As you probably already know it takes a good 4 to 6 weeks to really start to see the full benefits from the medication. I took klonopin during that time to help with the more anxious days. That might be something to discuss with your doctor...a benzodiazipine to help with the crisis times. I myself prefer klonopin to Xanax. But worth talking to your doctor about.
I also had to fall back on my CBT training from years ago. I had to breath my way out of panic attacks. I had to practice replacing my negative thoughts with positive ones on paper. I had to imagine pulling a red handle and say STOP in order to halt the catastrophizing process in my head. Did you ever learn CBT?
For what you are going through I think that for now you need to just be aware of when you go to pick at your nails, you have to stop yourself in anyway you can. If it means wearing socks on your hands when you are at home...then do that. Don't think for a second it is ridiculous. Our minds are capable of making us do the most irrational stuff. Imagine pulling that red handle and say STOP. When you have anxiety because you cannot pick at your nails, practicing your breathing. if you don't know the technique let me know.
Lastly, and mostly importrantly, you know you can get better. You did it before and there is absolutely nothing stopping you from gettng better this time. This is a momentary bump in the road. I knew I would get better this past May, I just knew it was going to take a while. And here I am back to my old self again...on meds of course, but who cares. I'll take them for the rest of my life if I have to.
So hang in there, think positive thoughts, and try very, very hard to stop yoursrelf when your hands go to your feet. Try the socks when you are at home.
I hope I have been of some help and comfort to you. With the right help, the right medication, you will get better! Just in case you find that Celexa is not for you, I take Wellbutrin. It has less side effects overall but again, each medications works differently for each person. My first medication was Prozac years and years ago and that worked too.
Take care and keep me posted with what I know is going to be progress!