Body rocking

[Pauledh]

Hi,

I wonder if anyone could help me figure out something... Up until about 4 years ago I would body-rock. Im now 34, from the age of I realy dont know when... since my memory started at the age of say 2 i would body rock. I'd lie on the floor and rock for between a few minutes up to 6 hours or more. I'd rock on the floor and day dream and it seems that the rocking motion would help me day dream and I'd end up in almost in a trance. It completly messed up my education... instead of studying I'd body rock and dream whenever possible.... I mean I was totaly addicted to it, it may seam strange but it got worse from childhood. Im my teens and twenties i spent most of my spare time doing this, once I got to the age to start listening to music I'd body rock with music playing, with the different type of music depending one what i wanded to dream about or vice versa. It could be for the whole weekend and I've lost so much my life doing this.... You would'nt believe. I don't believe I'm autistic... i dont seem to show any other signs... I have a good career now and live a happy life but I'd like to understand what happened to me for all those years.

I'm not entirely sure this is the right forum, maybe it should be mental health but if anyone could help me understand I would much appreciatre your thoughts! If not i will try the other forums. Thanks for your time

[ShoneOceanGirl]

You are one of many.....

[JGF25]

Glad you feel better.  It is a stress reliever.  Not sure if you ever saw the video of Bill Gates rocking in his chair during an anti trust hearing with the government.  He was definitely stressed.  And hey...this is Bill Gates we are talking about.  Mr. Billionaire...and he rocks under stress.

http://www.break.com/video/bill-gates-rain-man-98659

People write stupid things like "rain man" but they don't get that it is a way to relieve stress for a lot of people.  

Rock-on as long as it doesn't interfere with your daily life!  

[Jrcphoenix]

I am glad I'm not alone

[grouchoi]

Hi people, does anyone knows if it affects the baby if the mother body rocks while she is pregnant? thanks!

[ShoneOceanGirl]

Hi ajill
Your comments really touched me.  You sound so sad......and I know exactly how you feel and why you feel it.  You  are still quite young and I think that this secret can feel overwhelming at times.  I am wondering why you are thinking of telling people about it....when you have plenty of spare time have a read through all of the comments, you will see that it diminishes and eventually stops for a lot of people.  But more than that, take comfort in knowing that the comments on this site are from people who completely understand how it is to live with this 'secret'.  And I bet there are so many more people out there who we have not heard from yet.  It is more common than you think.

[ShoneOceanGirl]

I agree with your comment that rocking is related to anxiety and lack of affection.  I am of the belief that the root cause of my own rocking was related to anxiety and a detached style of parenting from my own parents particularly my mother.  The compulsion to body rock is long gone but it is something that I still wonder about why I did it.  After reading other stories here it seems that the umbrella of anxiety drives the rocking compulsion for most people.  It's almost a primal action of self soothing that is subconcious.