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Body rocking
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I wonder if anyone could help me figure out something... Up until about 4 years ago I would body-rock. Im now 34, from the age of I realy dont know when... since my memory started at the age of say 2 i would body rock. I'd lie on the floor and rock for between a few minutes up to 6 hours or more. I'd rock on the floor and day dream and it seems that the rocking motion would help me day dream and I'd end up in almost in a trance. It completly messed up my education... instead of studying I'd body rock and dream whenever possible.... I mean I was totaly addicted to it, it may seam strange but it got worse from childhood. Im my teens and twenties i spent most of my spare time doing this, once I got to the age to start listening to music I'd body rock with music playing, with the different type of music depending one what i wanded to dream about or vice versa. It could be for the whole weekend and I've lost so much my life doing this.... You would'nt believe. I don't believe I'm autistic... i dont seem to show any other signs... I have a good career now and live a happy life but I'd like to understand what happened to me for all those years.
I'm not entirely sure this is the right forum, maybe it should be mental health but if anyone could help me understand I would much appreciatre your thoughts! If not i will try the other forums. Thanks for your time
I wonder if anyone could help me figure out something... Up until about 4 years ago I would body-rock. Im now 34, from the age of I realy dont know when... since my memory started at the age of say 2 i would body rock. I'd lie on the floor and rock for between a few minutes up to 6 hours or more. I'd rock on the floor and day dream and it seems that the rocking motion would help me day dream and I'd end up in almost in a trance. It completly messed up my education... instead of studying I'd body rock and dream whenever possible.... I mean I was totaly addicted to it, it may seam strange but it got worse from childhood. Im my teens and twenties i spent most of my spare time doing this, once I got to the age to start listening to music I'd body rock with music playing, with the different type of music depending one what i wanded to dream about or vice versa. It could be for the whole weekend and I've lost so much my life doing this.... You would'nt believe. I don't believe I'm autistic... i dont seem to show any other signs... I have a good career now and live a happy life but I'd like to understand what happened to me for all those years.
I'm not entirely sure this is the right forum, maybe it should be mental health but if anyone could help me understand I would much appreciatre your thoughts! If not i will try the other forums. Thanks for your time
Wow, I didn't realize there were so many people who did this like me. I used to rock in a regular chair while I was listening to music until about 13years. I also used to rock in the car in the passenger seat until I was about 13 years. I used to get strange looks from cars passing by. I have a rocking chair that I use a lot, but I don't do it anymore in the car. I have OCD, but it is manageable. Just takes me longer to do things. I don't take meds for this. I don't know if that is the cause. I also grind my teeth really bad and over half of them are ground down to the gum line. I am wondering if anyone does the teeth grinding with the rocking. I was thinking maybe this could be caused by post traumatic stress disorder or autism? Sometimes I rock back and forth from side to side when I am standing too. I am wondering what people have been diagnosed with that have similar symptoms.
I am a 58 yo woman. I rocked from my earliest memories until I was 42. Rocking to my favourite music and daydreaming for hours, fantasising how I would like my life to be was what I did whenever I could. Like a lot of you if I was not able to rock I would feel on edge and also feel withdrawal symptoms. My mother saw me rock when I was very young but as I grew older I hid it from everyone and it became a secret that I felt very ashamed of. I used to worry what people would think of me if they knew how 'weird' I was. The compulsion to rock became stronger in my teen years and became compulsive in my twenties. It became a vicious cycle of feeling ashamed because I rocked, so I rocked more because it made me feel better. I feel that I wasted a lot of my life rocking when I was actually doing it, it satisfied something within me that I still cannot explain. It was a need I had to satisfy.
The year I was 42 and my son was 10, we were both diagnosed with ADHD and prescribed dexamphetamine which we both took daily for six months. The first couple of months on the dex was good, it helped me to focus and be more productive. But then by the third month I started to feel more aggressive and the compulsion to rock became an addiction.. After taking my kids to school I would race home to rock all day and do nothing else but that. My anxiety increased hugely and I was only sleeping 2 hours a night and only eating one slice of toast a day. So my son and I ceased the medication. Within a couple of weeks I was sleeping and eating
normally, and the compulsion/addiction to rocking diminished greatly. At the same time, one day for the first time in 42 years, I just did not feel the urge to rock and I think I may have rocked 3 times since then (in 16 years)just to see what it felt like.
My theory is that the dex kind of reset my brain!!!! The compulsion to rock just disappeared. I have been diagnosed with GAD (generalised anxiety disorder), I know I am socially phobic (I do not enjoy socialising) I am very introverted and prefer my own company. I have other very minor OCD quirks that do not impact on daily living. I think my rocking is related to anxiety, and also some very subtle Asperger quirks. I am not someone who makes friends easily and am fairly detached and disconnected except with my family. I really believe that the kind of rocking I did was related to my anxiety because of a detached parenting style from my parents.
This site has been a revelation to me to know that other people go through the same thing. I spent 42 years feeling like a freak and wondering what was 'wrong 'with me. There is nothing wrong with any of us. Realising that there are many more people doing this and wondering why they do it must mean it is a common human reaction to something......bless you all.
The year I was 42 and my son was 10, we were both diagnosed with ADHD and prescribed dexamphetamine which we both took daily for six months. The first couple of months on the dex was good, it helped me to focus and be more productive. But then by the third month I started to feel more aggressive and the compulsion to rock became an addiction.. After taking my kids to school I would race home to rock all day and do nothing else but that. My anxiety increased hugely and I was only sleeping 2 hours a night and only eating one slice of toast a day. So my son and I ceased the medication. Within a couple of weeks I was sleeping and eating
normally, and the compulsion/addiction to rocking diminished greatly. At the same time, one day for the first time in 42 years, I just did not feel the urge to rock and I think I may have rocked 3 times since then (in 16 years)just to see what it felt like.
My theory is that the dex kind of reset my brain!!!! The compulsion to rock just disappeared. I have been diagnosed with GAD (generalised anxiety disorder), I know I am socially phobic (I do not enjoy socialising) I am very introverted and prefer my own company. I have other very minor OCD quirks that do not impact on daily living. I think my rocking is related to anxiety, and also some very subtle Asperger quirks. I am not someone who makes friends easily and am fairly detached and disconnected except with my family. I really believe that the kind of rocking I did was related to my anxiety because of a detached parenting style from my parents.
This site has been a revelation to me to know that other people go through the same thing. I spent 42 years feeling like a freak and wondering what was 'wrong 'with me. There is nothing wrong with any of us. Realising that there are many more people doing this and wondering why they do it must mean it is a common human reaction to something......bless you all.
I was born addicted to steroids and have Cushing's and Hirschprung's I rocked back and forth since I was an infant. Why? How's this, unbearable pain. The rocking soothed the pain so much and listening to hard rock seemed to have helped. I am in my 50s and I do not rock that much anymore, only when in pain. Too bad....if I choose to, I will rock my *** off
Wow guys, so many of you are still rocking and barely anyone got efficient treatment.
I've been a rocker all my life up to the age of 25. That's about the time I fell in love and it stopped abruptly, within a day.
Now I'm almost 29 and I sometimes think - would rocking around, listening to music for hours on end make any sense? I pause and try to rock on the couch/chair and no, I just don't feel the compulsion anymore.
Now I've read a bunch of hypothesis on this from stimming, stereotypy to Reactive Attachment Disorder, none of which entirely encompass my symptoms and feelings.
I have a Maine Coon cat, who has been taken away from his mother when he was 4 months old and he loves to kneed. I thinks it's his way of "rocking" as I feel my rocking was to me for all these years.
My mom was constantly at work when I was little and I was raised by my grandmother and I used to listen to music, sing and rock for hours and hours.
The moment I fell in love I lost the need for the rocking all together.
There must be some link between anxiety and lack of affection that is causing this behaviour.
I truly hope all you rockers find your way out of this because as far as I enjoy being a walking jukebox, knowing lyrics to a preposterous amount of songs, the time you spend on rocking can be way better spent than daydreaming about what could be, who you could become and all the things you can achieve as I did. I can't say the life I have led up to the point I stopped rocking was unsatisfying in any way but I'm sure it did have a big impact on my social abilities and only now I begin to recover and become a person I always wanted to be in my daydreams while I was rocking.
All the advice I can give you guys, who feel inadequate, incapable of being loved and just plain weird - give yourselves a chance, don't give up on having a normal life. What you are doing isn't something wrong and it's just a way your body says you are under a lot of stress for various reasons.
I've been a rocker all my life up to the age of 25. That's about the time I fell in love and it stopped abruptly, within a day.
Now I'm almost 29 and I sometimes think - would rocking around, listening to music for hours on end make any sense? I pause and try to rock on the couch/chair and no, I just don't feel the compulsion anymore.
Now I've read a bunch of hypothesis on this from stimming, stereotypy to Reactive Attachment Disorder, none of which entirely encompass my symptoms and feelings.
I have a Maine Coon cat, who has been taken away from his mother when he was 4 months old and he loves to kneed. I thinks it's his way of "rocking" as I feel my rocking was to me for all these years.
My mom was constantly at work when I was little and I was raised by my grandmother and I used to listen to music, sing and rock for hours and hours.
The moment I fell in love I lost the need for the rocking all together.
There must be some link between anxiety and lack of affection that is causing this behaviour.
I truly hope all you rockers find your way out of this because as far as I enjoy being a walking jukebox, knowing lyrics to a preposterous amount of songs, the time you spend on rocking can be way better spent than daydreaming about what could be, who you could become and all the things you can achieve as I did. I can't say the life I have led up to the point I stopped rocking was unsatisfying in any way but I'm sure it did have a big impact on my social abilities and only now I begin to recover and become a person I always wanted to be in my daydreams while I was rocking.
All the advice I can give you guys, who feel inadequate, incapable of being loved and just plain weird - give yourselves a chance, don't give up on having a normal life. What you are doing isn't something wrong and it's just a way your body says you are under a lot of stress for various reasons.
i also am vrey skinny from rocking my self i wish i could find a way to not get skinny wile rocking myself
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