Can anyone relate to this?

[kindaworried24]

Hello,
          I wanted to know if anyone out there has a fear of the HIV virus? I have always had some form of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I used to take part in the obsessive hand washing, light flicking, checking to make sure your car is locked 20 times and other types of behaviors. For the past few years I have been terrified of the HIV virus.

I will worry about HIV in ways that it cannot be transmitted. I even get naucious if I hear the word spoken, I get tested often and in one case I thought the person did the test wrong, so I went to another place an hour later. My tests results come back negative and sometimes I feel better, but then I will worry about some other potential risk. I used to worry that people were purposly trying somehow to get me, such as stabbing me with a needle.

I know that I have a problem. I am anticipating a meeting with a psychiatrist, but does anyone have this problem? Has anyone cured this fear?

[kindaworried24]

Hey,
        Thanks for the responses, it makes me feel slightly better that I know alot of us are in the same boat. However, I am at the point where I am so sick of this problem that I have to do something. I am gonna go on meds and if they work I will def recommend them to others. There is no reason we should be living with such fear, especially if we can do something about it.

[rwonder]

I worry about stains too,,,the other day I flicked a bug off of my bed, and saw a red spot (so tiny, like apin point) an was so afraid that it was some hiv ridden bug that I took the sheets off.

[rwonder]

I alos have a fear of HIV.  It had lasted years and years and it is slowing starting to get better.  Though before I got tested, I wasn't really worried as much of getting it as I was convinved that I already had it and I was going to spread it to the whole world.  I don't have it and am not just starting to calm a little.  I would be afraid that if I touched anyones food that they were automatically going to get hiv from me.  I'm not trying to push drugs, because if you can get through it wout them, do it, but lexapro helped me a lot.  I just had a baby and I am breastfeeding so I had to go off of the lexapro (I can't really take anything) so sometimes I just have to take deep breaths and try to calm myself.  the other day  I cute myslef and I didn't even fre3ak out about passing it on.  I do still worry about getting it though.  I worry that I'm going to sit on a needle or slip in a puddle of blood or something non-likely like that.  I didn't see a psychiatrist, but a therapist helped a lot.

[Jboy284]

I do have this problem, i worry about so much more than just this, but i do worry about this too. i have not gotten help for it yet though. But you are not alone with this problem, i wash my hands all the time and im scared of blood or anything that resembles it. a red stain on a shirt could stress me out terribly. I dont know what could help , but just lettin you know that your not the only one dealing with this issue and yea, i worry about checking to make sure things are closed or off or locked many times as well.