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Compulsive masturbation
I am currently being treated by a therapist/counselor for a problem with compulsive masturbation.
I have been addicted to porn/masturbation for 25 years.
About 5 years ago, I began experiencing significant muscle loss throughout my body, as well as burning/tingling in my muscles. I've also developed severe insomnia.
I have read an article, stating that excessive sexual activity can cause a depletion of the neurotransmitter Acetylcholine (Ach) in the brain, which can result in damage to the neurons and neuromuscular junctions.
I've had countless number of medical tests over the last few years and all have come up negative. Has anyone ever come across, a case like mine? Is there anyone else that experiences these symptoms? If my muscle loss is due to the depletion of Ach, then is there a way to increase Ach production? Will the muscles ever become strong again or will they always be atrophied and painful?
Need help!
David
I have been addicted to porn/masturbation for 25 years.
About 5 years ago, I began experiencing significant muscle loss throughout my body, as well as burning/tingling in my muscles. I've also developed severe insomnia.
I have read an article, stating that excessive sexual activity can cause a depletion of the neurotransmitter Acetylcholine (Ach) in the brain, which can result in damage to the neurons and neuromuscular junctions.
I've had countless number of medical tests over the last few years and all have come up negative. Has anyone ever come across, a case like mine? Is there anyone else that experiences these symptoms? If my muscle loss is due to the depletion of Ach, then is there a way to increase Ach production? Will the muscles ever become strong again or will they always be atrophied and painful?
Need help!
David
i have been a real victim of compulsive masturbation.i have been masturbationg from age 14 and did every day once or twice a day.nw i am 25.i became a porn addict at age of 19.now that i have stopped ,my mind just feels like it woke up from a very very deep sleep.cant tell really terrible to say ,i cant recognize myself i have become so weak.i do body building have average build ,that helped me a bit,but i have destroyed my life.it feels like am a walking dead.Otherwise i am perfectly normal.guys plz get rid of this habit or make it to once a week only.trust me u will feel the difference.tc
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I'm 32 years old and I have been masturbating for about 25 years now. I know it seems strange that I started playing with myself at age 7, but it's true. When I was about 4 or 5 years old, my neighbor/friend, who was two years older than me, would want to 'play games' and he would touch me and make me touch him. I didn't know any better. I went through high school and then college and into my adulthood. I suffer from depression and severe social anxiety. I never gave it much thought throughout the years until a few years ago when I started talking to a therapist. I never mentioned it to her, but the images just swam their way back into my head and I started making connections with my addiction to those moments when I was a child. This is my first time ever talking about this, except with my wife. She doesn't know I masturbate regularly, and I know I could tell if I had to. I am unemployed and home a lot by myself. Some days I can fight through the urges to touch myself. I tell myself 'No' and I go to the gym or find something else to do. I can go a few days without masturbating, and on those occassions I FEEL AMAZING. I'm energetic. Positive. My mind doesn't feel cloudy. I can think faster and I feel and look better. Then I jump off the wagon. My wife isn't very sexual in nature and doesn't have the same appetite as I do. So if we don't have relations for a few days, sometimes weeks, obviously I crave that sensation and I fail. Then I get into a habit of masturbating every day. Sometimes once, sometimes twice, sometimes three or four times. I feel guilty. I feel tired. I feel drained mentally and physically. I don't work out. I over eat. I get lathargic. It's amazing to me the physical and emotional differences in my behavior when I masturbate versus when I don't. It's quite fascinating. I already masturbated this morning. I fantasize about a friend. I felt sleezy afterwards. Then I decided to look for blogs such as this. I wanted to read and understand other people with the same ailment. I've always known it was a problem, but reading some of these posts has really inspired me to take action again, and really strive to make myself a better person for myself and for my wife. It's time to start living and stop blanketing my vice. As much as I crave that rush for orgasm and that relaxation afterwards, I would rather crave the energy and positive feeling of knowing that I can overcome this addiction. I want a new life for myself. I've never really known anything else. It's time to start taking control. I will come back on here for inspiration, like I did today, if I feel like I am falling again. Thank you to everyone who has shared their story - it isn't easy, even on a blog.
I'm 32 years old and I have been masturbating for about 25 years now. I know it seems strange that I started playing with myself at age 7, but it's true. When I was about 4 or 5 years old, my neighbor/friend, who was two years older than me, would want to 'play games' and he would touch me and make me touch him. I didn't know any better. I went through high school and then college and into my adulthood. I suffer from depression and severe social anxiety. I never gave it much thought throughout the years until a few years ago when I started talking to a therapist. I never mentioned it to her, but the images just swam their way back into my head and I started making connections with my addiction to those moments when I was a child. This is my first time ever talking about this, except with my wife. She doesn't know I masturbate regularly, and I know I could tell if I had to. I am unemployed and home a lot by myself. Some days I can fight through the urges to touch myself. I tell myself 'No' and I go to the gym or find something else to do. I can go a few days without masturbating, and on those occassions I FEEL AMAZING. I'm energetic. Positive. My mind doesn't feel cloudy. I can think faster and I feel and look better. Then I jump off the wagon. My wife isn't very sexual in nature and doesn't have the same appetite as I do. So if we don't have relations for a few days, sometimes weeks, obviously I crave that sensation and I fail. Then I get into a habit of masturbating every day. Sometimes once, sometimes twice, sometimes three or four times. I feel guilty. I feel tired. I feel drained mentally and physically. I don't work out. I over eat. I get lathargic. It's amazing to me the physical and emotional differences in my behavior when I masturbate versus when I don't. It's quite fascinating. I already masturbated this morning. I fantasize about a friend. I felt sleezy afterwards. Then I decided to look for blogs such as this. I wanted to read and understand other people with the same ailment. I've always known it was a problem, but reading some of these posts has really inspired me to take action again, and really strive to make myself a better person for myself and for my wife. It's time to start living and stop blanketing my vice. As much as I crave that rush for orgasm and that relaxation afterwards, I would rather crave the energy and positive feeling of knowing that I can overcome this addiction. I want a new life for myself. I've never really known anything else. It's time to start taking control. I will come back on here for inspiration, like I did today, if I feel like I am falling again. Thank you to everyone who has shared their story - it isn't easy, even on a blog.
my doctor told me my muscle loss could be due to excessive masterbation,i have a bad a habit of 23 years ,im getting pain in muscle and joints are weak.i hate doing it and have tried stopping 100s of times
Took a lot of courage but here is my story. I started to M. since I was 13. I'm 25 now and have been constantly M. for 12 years now. I started with normal porn but gradually I felt I needed more and more so now I M. to shemale porn (regular porn doesn't even turn me on anymore) and the worst part is that I M. by stimulating/milking my prostate (so that I can ejaculate without even touching my penis). Useless to say, I feel my whole world is going to hell. I am permanently anxious, got social phobia, huge concentration problems (I'm a college student), no libido, no pleasure from eating food and frequent mood changes. My erections are weak and whenever i'm trying to have sex with a girl this is a huge problem, especially when it comes to putting the condom on.
I tried to stop this several times but since it has been such a long time I am M. I failed. Every time I failed it just got worse. Failing having decent erections with real girls made me even more depressed. I can't even describe you how embarassing and humiliating is that. And it happened several times.
So i decided to stop M. once again. Try to workout, go jogging (it's not easy when you have social anxiety), eat healthy and go to sleep early.
I am also taking St John's wort pills in order to cope with my depression and spirulina to supply my body with nutrients.
So far I managed not to M. for 1 week. My max was 2 weeks. I can confirm you that not M. makes you feel better, it's like youhad more energy. It is especially true for anxiety (I feel a lot more confident, I don't know if this is because my testosterone level is getting back to normal or not).
For those who say M is a normal thing: it might be but trust me, it can ruin your life. I personally wish I never started to M. It sure did play a role in making me the weak, depressed and half impotent person I am right now.
I hope you guys get over your M. addiction. It's a "demon" you have to fight. I know I'm at war with it, I just hope I don't end up defeated.
I tried to stop this several times but since it has been such a long time I am M. I failed. Every time I failed it just got worse. Failing having decent erections with real girls made me even more depressed. I can't even describe you how embarassing and humiliating is that. And it happened several times.
So i decided to stop M. once again. Try to workout, go jogging (it's not easy when you have social anxiety), eat healthy and go to sleep early.
I am also taking St John's wort pills in order to cope with my depression and spirulina to supply my body with nutrients.
So far I managed not to M. for 1 week. My max was 2 weeks. I can confirm you that not M. makes you feel better, it's like youhad more energy. It is especially true for anxiety (I feel a lot more confident, I don't know if this is because my testosterone level is getting back to normal or not).
For those who say M is a normal thing: it might be but trust me, it can ruin your life. I personally wish I never started to M. It sure did play a role in making me the weak, depressed and half impotent person I am right now.
I hope you guys get over your M. addiction. It's a "demon" you have to fight. I know I'm at war with it, I just hope I don't end up defeated.
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you should be proud of yourself. Keep up making positive changes. Go tot he gym. You will be exhausted at first, which will help you sleep and not M. or M less, and eventually the endorphins that flood your brain when you exercise will make you feel so good, you will crave working out and not masturbating. The key is to stay away from M for as long as you can so that the desire for it goes away, and at the same time replace it with a healthy addiction such as working out. Also find a hobby, or sign up for some social groups with meetings so that you keep busy and have something to look forward to. worked for me. Good luck.
i also like to masterbate at times but i am not addicted as much as my boyfriend.see we are a few states apart.i dont want to lose him so i do it for him when he calls me on the phone every night.because he seems to really get off on it.but truefully i really dont enjoy it as much as i use to.i am getting to the point i have to look at porn in order to even touch myself or fantasize about some one doing it to me in order to get off.if my boyfriend keeps this up.i will break up with him and find someone else to really please me.
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