I Think its OCD, but not sure

[Rob_Joe]

I'm a 17 year old. i had merca (not sure thats how you spell it) 2 months ago and went to the doctor to get it treated. they gave me a type of pill to take every 6 hours. maybe a week after i was taking it, i had a bad anxiety attack, and my depression rose really high. soon the depression went away after i went to the doctor and got perscribed with some meds. but ever since then i've been going crazy. I dont know if its anxiety or obsessive thinking. but i can't seem to think normally. I think about thinking. then somehow force myself to not be able to think. i know its stupid. but it scares the living crap out of me so bad. i've even thought about suicide. i feel like i'm stuck in a different reality. its a 24/7 thing, all day every day, every second of the day. I dont know what to do anymore. i'm seeing a tharapist. but all he did was show me a method of "Though Stoping" thats cool and all but its not jus one thing i'm thinking about. its thinking in general. I was perfectly fine 2 months ago before i had my anxiety attack. I just dont know what to do. please help me.

[Rob_Joe]

You have no idea how good it feels to know that you actually care. My parents cared at first, but they think its something that will go away in a week, like a flu. so when i tell em how i feel now, they jus say you'll be fine and pass me by. I do have my up days, when i am completely occupied. but that only lasts a few hours. then later when i am alone, I realize that i was in a good mood and that i somewhat felt normal, so i get crazy depressed. Please know that i am really serious. Nobody here thinks i am. I've been in tharapy for about 4 weeks. i go every friday. my parents found a pyschiatrist but they keep moving the appointment back more and more. I live in a very small town, with almost absolutly nothing to do. at least 60 miles away from any big size town. I dont know how to keep my head up anymore. it doesnt seem like theres a point. I didnt go to school today because i just wanted to sit in my bed and be miserable. I hate it so bad. i'm not a depressed guy. i love being happy. being me. I'll do anything in the world to get over this, but i have no clue how. I want to give up so bad. Thank you for caring so much. its awesome to talk to somebody about this.

[hmf099]

I don't have much time, but I want you to know you can get better. However, it won't get better on its own. You'll have to work at it. Thought stopping is not a very good coping skill in my opinion, but there are many other skills out there.I would call your insurance company and ask for a list of other therapists in your area. How long have you been in therapy? It does take time. You may also want to go in for a med review with you psychiatrist. I'm very alarmed about the suicide talk. This needs to be addressed NOW, if you can't see your dr right away go to the ER! We care about you here and want to know how you are doing so keep us posted and message me anytime.

[Rob_Joe]

Yeah, it was MRSA. yeah thats what they tell might have happened. the pill i was taking for the MRSA caused an imbalance in my brain. Does that mean i'm not ever going to get better. I Really dont want to stay like this. I get more scared everyday. It even seems like its getting worse. Thanks for posting me.

[LivingwithOCD07]

Do you mean MRSA? Perhaps the MRSA caused some sort of imbalance in your brain? I'm not trying to scare you, I'm just saying maybe this is something you should talk to your PCP about. Also, don't feel like you're alone or that you are more weird than anyone else, because I am sure one of us here has been even worse off then the next person! Lol. Anyways, find a different Doctor. That's the only advice I can really give you because obviously the person you are with now, the therapy isn't helping you for the long term. Research it on the internet and try and find a different Doctor. Call around, tell your symptoms to the Doctor, nurse, Medical clerk, etc. and see if this Doctor is certified in these areas.