I am not sure if what you are feeling is OCD or not. OCD can be so widely varied and just because its not the typical symptoms doesnt mean its not. You can always seek out a second opinion if you feel that it might not be OCD>
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Based on my own experience with OCD, wanting to be religiously perfect is common in OCD. I want to say my prayers over if I mess up, say them just right, etc., even though I know it makes no sense. Many times I force myself NOT to do those things just so I don't give in to the OCD. It's difficult, though, since it causes anxiety. I have problems with bad memories and feelings coming back from my past, too, and it can hit pretty hard. I don't know if that's OCD, but it is obsessive. Take care, Mari