OCD about hiv?

[felula]

Ok..here we go. I think it started last week when I got tested for hiv at one of the free clinics. I didn't realised it then but the next day it suddenly hit me that I haven't seen the nurse taking out a new needle! She just said 'it's a new needle' to make sure even though no one asked. But I keep asking myself, what if she forgot changing needles? And It's been bothering me ever since. Besides, I have a partner and I'm worried that I might infect him as well. I do know that it's impossible to get hiv from blood lancets even if she reused it one me, but I can't help worrying. Now I'm worried about what if in the future, I have to get an injection or have my blood drawn in the hospital? Will I constantly doubt that they forgot changing needles? It totally drives me nuts! How shall I overcome this irrational fear? I KNOW this is irrational but seeing as I'm still freaking out, do I have OCD? Do I have to talk to someone?

[felula]

Thanks, mate. Your solution sounds pretty hard but I think I could give it a try. Though my biggest fear is not the fear that I'm having, but the fear that I'll have after any medical treatment(injection, etc.) in the future. But I guess I can try not to think about it..

[i_am_who_i_am]

i have been there before. one time i had my blood taken and got upset because the nurse who took my blood had a cut on her finger. it was old and healing but she had no band-aid on it. i became very worried for days that maybe she had aids and her cut touched my injection site and then I would have it to. this fear went on for a while but eventually it went away on its own. the best thing to do with ocd behaviour is to ignore it and accept the sacry thoughts. by that i mean dont argue back with your ocd just tell youself "maybe i did get aids who knows guess i will find out in time" then go on about your life. i know it sounds hard but it works because what it does is exposes you to your fear and helps to desensitize you to it. So eventually you will learn not to respond with the anxiety.